...why?
Things aren't lookin' too bright right now to be honest. I need to update just to get some thins off my chest so if u feel like reading about my complaints and issues then continue... otherwise move on.
I don't know what to do. Stupid car has me drained and I don't have any money to fix things. Thursday night I was goin pick up Nick when it was really shitty on the roads and I tried turning on his street and my bald ass tires wudnt turn for me so I hit the fuckin' curb. I need new tires, yeah, 400 bucks I don't have... and now I had to run out and get a new $220 rim. I also have to get a $90 alignment. I still have to pay off my mom who covered me for my last car payment and insurance ($750) cuz my stupid ass decided to take the chance on goin down to Mardi Gras with the last couple hundred I had figuring it was a once in a lifetime experience and I wish I didn't go now because of the hell I'm goin through. I have been pulling out 40+ hour weeks tryin to make up for shit so I can pay my mom back but now I have to make enough in a short amount of time to pay my car bills again, and it seems my bank account never grows and just constantly drains w/e I throw in there... and I still need to get new tires on top of the alignment I need. I don't know what to do. I wish things were different and I didn't have to worry about all this and I just went to school and had a decent job and still have my old car so i could have money in the bank for school and whatever else I needed. I hate this so much. I can't fuckin' bare this. I just want my worries to be gone and like I was tellin Greg last night, I just want to be happy. As of now, happiness seems so far away but I still continue to try my hardest not to let my sorrow show, hoping that pretending that I'm happy will maybe make me happy. I don't look foward to the future ever anymore because I'm scared... Problems don't seem to go away.
I don't know what to do. Stupid car has me drained and I don't have any money to fix things. Thursday night I was goin pick up Nick when it was really shitty on the roads and I tried turning on his street and my bald ass tires wudnt turn for me so I hit the fuckin' curb. I need new tires, yeah, 400 bucks I don't have... and now I had to run out and get a new $220 rim. I also have to get a $90 alignment. I still have to pay off my mom who covered me for my last car payment and insurance ($750) cuz my stupid ass decided to take the chance on goin down to Mardi Gras with the last couple hundred I had figuring it was a once in a lifetime experience and I wish I didn't go now because of the hell I'm goin through. I have been pulling out 40+ hour weeks tryin to make up for shit so I can pay my mom back but now I have to make enough in a short amount of time to pay my car bills again, and it seems my bank account never grows and just constantly drains w/e I throw in there... and I still need to get new tires on top of the alignment I need. I don't know what to do. I wish things were different and I didn't have to worry about all this and I just went to school and had a decent job and still have my old car so i could have money in the bank for school and whatever else I needed. I hate this so much. I can't fuckin' bare this. I just want my worries to be gone and like I was tellin Greg last night, I just want to be happy. As of now, happiness seems so far away but I still continue to try my hardest not to let my sorrow show, hoping that pretending that I'm happy will maybe make me happy. I don't look foward to the future ever anymore because I'm scared... Problems don't seem to go away.