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Such a chirpy song to foretell the end of all things, lol. I need to listen to chirpier stuff i think. Ban me from the smiths for the foreseeable future!!!
met this guy in the pub (his wife had the job i now do) was only the 2nd time i met him, and he mustve done some serious psych evaluations in the army, lol, coz within 5 mins he'd bulldozed through all my (admitedly badly constructed) defences and basically told me what my problems & insecurities were, and could tell if i was lying or alternately, really meant what i was saying. Scary. He wasnt being malicious....just a lot more abrupt and upfront then im used to. So after being all pleased with myself for getting out to edinburgh for the day, i downed my pint hell fast and went off to sit bymyself outside, wondering if it was that obvious to everyone else and if that was the case i should take the toaster in the bath. except that there arent any baths here :D
So, its good to be working and occupied which keeps the demons at bay, barely. He will be gone soon so then i can stop picking at an open wound. But atm nights are the worst.
met this guy in the pub (his wife had the job i now do) was only the 2nd time i met him, and he mustve done some serious psych evaluations in the army, lol, coz within 5 mins he'd bulldozed through all my (admitedly badly constructed) defences and basically told me what my problems & insecurities were, and could tell if i was lying or alternately, really meant what i was saying. Scary. He wasnt being malicious....just a lot more abrupt and upfront then im used to. So after being all pleased with myself for getting out to edinburgh for the day, i downed my pint hell fast and went off to sit bymyself outside, wondering if it was that obvious to everyone else and if that was the case i should take the toaster in the bath. except that there arent any baths here :D
So, its good to be working and occupied which keeps the demons at bay, barely. He will be gone soon so then i can stop picking at an open wound. But atm nights are the worst.