29 and fabulous
I think I'm the only person over 21 who gets really excited about her birthday. It's not that getting older is really thrilling... it's like a sense of accomplishment. I survived one more year. I'm another year closer to... something (death i guess). Maybe it's because my birthday falls so close to New Years Day, and there's still that universal sense of new goals and resolutions and starting fresh, and that mindset just gets re-energized by my turning another year older. So I have some birthday resolutions.
1. Study the Bible as well as Kung Fu; grow stronger in body, mind, and spirit; take better care of my body, mind, and spirit.
2. Take better care of my money--actually save some--start getting out of debt.
3. Get paid to write and edit.
4. Quit my day job (no time soon--but it will happen).
5. Go somewhere I've never been (like NYC).
6. Take better care of my house--keep it clean, even though I live alone and don't have company often.
7. Sell a song... or at least get them pitched, whether they're accepted or not.
8. Do not be afraid to take risks... and take lots of them.
9. Get the most out of every moment and enjoy everything fully.
My mother usually says something motherly to me on my birthday like, "this is going to be your year." And I just smile and nod or whatever. But (even though I haven't talked to her and heard that yet) I really feel like that is the case. There's something about this year that's different. It's not because it's the last year of my 20's or something silly like that--it's got nothing to do with the age I have reached (not like, you're 21 and can drink legally or something).... I just feel like something big is going to happen to me. And maybe it's just that I'll get to go to New York, as in #5 above. But there's something that's going to be different. That's all I know.
I feel like a grown-up. Maybe this is hitting me now because I'm 10 years behind on my social development, thanks to early childhood anxiety issues and selective mutism. And I don't really know how to describe what it is like to feel like a grown-up... like I'm at an equal status with my peers or something, where I have felt like I didn't measure up somehow. Maybe I just don't care about measuring up and just want to be myself, and am finally comfortable with who "myself" is. "Myself" is pretty fabulous, in my opinion.
1. Study the Bible as well as Kung Fu; grow stronger in body, mind, and spirit; take better care of my body, mind, and spirit.
2. Take better care of my money--actually save some--start getting out of debt.
3. Get paid to write and edit.
4. Quit my day job (no time soon--but it will happen).
5. Go somewhere I've never been (like NYC).
6. Take better care of my house--keep it clean, even though I live alone and don't have company often.
7. Sell a song... or at least get them pitched, whether they're accepted or not.
8. Do not be afraid to take risks... and take lots of them.
9. Get the most out of every moment and enjoy everything fully.
My mother usually says something motherly to me on my birthday like, "this is going to be your year." And I just smile and nod or whatever. But (even though I haven't talked to her and heard that yet) I really feel like that is the case. There's something about this year that's different. It's not because it's the last year of my 20's or something silly like that--it's got nothing to do with the age I have reached (not like, you're 21 and can drink legally or something).... I just feel like something big is going to happen to me. And maybe it's just that I'll get to go to New York, as in #5 above. But there's something that's going to be different. That's all I know.
I feel like a grown-up. Maybe this is hitting me now because I'm 10 years behind on my social development, thanks to early childhood anxiety issues and selective mutism. And I don't really know how to describe what it is like to feel like a grown-up... like I'm at an equal status with my peers or something, where I have felt like I didn't measure up somehow. Maybe I just don't care about measuring up and just want to be myself, and am finally comfortable with who "myself" is. "Myself" is pretty fabulous, in my opinion.