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Band night went pretty well. We screwed up the first song, oh well. The other songs sounded good though.
I realized two things today. One I guess you can say is good. The other…..well its terrible. Actually I’m not positive about either, but very close to it.
I don’t feel like talking about he good one so ill talk about the bad one. Or maybe just ramble.
It’s amazing how and how quickly things can change. One event can cause others to seem like they never happened or at least that it was amazing that they did. So much can be lost and taken out to the garbage. And for what? Change can kill people but its not always bad. I love how I’m lied to. Or maybe some things just aren’t true anymore? or never were? I love how I’m criticized and lose things because of my “flaws” or my “qualities.” Wile at the same time these qualities are part of something else, something else that is praised. I can almost say I hate that “something else.” Ever think that something is true and hope its not? Ever think something is true and then be reassured that its not? (When it really is) And then pretty much find out that it is and be really pissed off? gah I don’t even care much about this. It just feels like I’m left in the dust. It feels like people could care less if something “kills” me or not. I love how I’m told things (that may not even be true or how people feel) just for a particular desired result. Gah I don’t know. You can do so much for a cause and then be slapped in the face in return.
Leaving for vacation on Saturday. I get to see my cousin Jennnnnn! Wooooo! And Mike woooooo! Get your ankle fixed! Hah that was random.
Well that good thing! I hope that good thing works out, or something happens with it.
Ok well I should study, or do the usual and do something else instead, like sleep.
Square dancing is over. I actually enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would.
I’ve acted like an idiot, two times a guess you can say with this regard, and I regret each time. I try not to regret things and usually don’t, but that I guess I do. My mind is a crazy place. Will optimism save me? Is that up to me or up to fate?
I’m so bad at writing my thoughts here. I don’t even know what I’m trying to say or get at. And this entry doesn’t even reflect how I feel much.
Eh so in conclusion…false intentions and false impressions can lead people down dark dark paths.
/die
I realized two things today. One I guess you can say is good. The other…..well its terrible. Actually I’m not positive about either, but very close to it.
I don’t feel like talking about he good one so ill talk about the bad one. Or maybe just ramble.
It’s amazing how and how quickly things can change. One event can cause others to seem like they never happened or at least that it was amazing that they did. So much can be lost and taken out to the garbage. And for what? Change can kill people but its not always bad. I love how I’m lied to. Or maybe some things just aren’t true anymore? or never were? I love how I’m criticized and lose things because of my “flaws” or my “qualities.” Wile at the same time these qualities are part of something else, something else that is praised. I can almost say I hate that “something else.” Ever think that something is true and hope its not? Ever think something is true and then be reassured that its not? (When it really is) And then pretty much find out that it is and be really pissed off? gah I don’t even care much about this. It just feels like I’m left in the dust. It feels like people could care less if something “kills” me or not. I love how I’m told things (that may not even be true or how people feel) just for a particular desired result. Gah I don’t know. You can do so much for a cause and then be slapped in the face in return.
Leaving for vacation on Saturday. I get to see my cousin Jennnnnn! Wooooo! And Mike woooooo! Get your ankle fixed! Hah that was random.
Well that good thing! I hope that good thing works out, or something happens with it.
Ok well I should study, or do the usual and do something else instead, like sleep.
Square dancing is over. I actually enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would.
I’ve acted like an idiot, two times a guess you can say with this regard, and I regret each time. I try not to regret things and usually don’t, but that I guess I do. My mind is a crazy place. Will optimism save me? Is that up to me or up to fate?
I’m so bad at writing my thoughts here. I don’t even know what I’m trying to say or get at. And this entry doesn’t even reflect how I feel much.
Eh so in conclusion…false intentions and false impressions can lead people down dark dark paths.
/die