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so i know that i shouldnt resent anyone who can do what i cant but every time i see a picture of someone playing soccer i feel sick to my stomach.
and then that makes me feel bad because its not their fault that i cant play and besides that, there are so many people that have it so much worse than me. i feel like i dont have any right to be upset. im rather lucky compared to a bunch of others.
therefor i think im stuck between a rock and a hard place. i want to feel terrible but then i feel terrible for feeling that way. and even more terrible for hating the fact that other people can do what i want when i cant. its not fair. but then again, it could be worse...
damn. this sucks.
and then that makes me feel bad because its not their fault that i cant play and besides that, there are so many people that have it so much worse than me. i feel like i dont have any right to be upset. im rather lucky compared to a bunch of others.
therefor i think im stuck between a rock and a hard place. i want to feel terrible but then i feel terrible for feeling that way. and even more terrible for hating the fact that other people can do what i want when i cant. its not fair. but then again, it could be worse...
damn. this sucks.