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[songofsadness]

all i wanted was to be a chef...now i have conditions that i have to go through to be one. what gives? my dad said i can go to cooking school and he will pay for it...no questions asked...under one condition: i go to college and get a degree...in music. why? i mean...what compelled me to want to be a music teacher anyway? its not like i have any musical talent whatsoever, and this was proved to me today at hayden auditions. i basically suck at music...but to do something that im acutally good at, i have to get a degree in something that im not good at.
on top of that, none of my jeans fit me, i've been crying most of the day, and i have a presentation in religion tomorrow that i am TOTALLY not prepared for.
i just just jump off the edge now...it'll make everything easier...