What good is wishing?

[songofmyself]

I wish I could be more like you. I wish I could forget everything about you and pretend that everything we had was insignificant. I wish I could let you fade out of my life like a character who gets killed off when he's no longer necessary or crucial to the plot. I wish I could ignore you and deny that I feel anything for you. I wish I could say that you mean nothing, that I don't think about you. I wish I could say that I don't know how I feel or don't care how I feel or can't remember how I feel or haven't thought about how I feel or am in denial about how I feel or am too scared to tell you how I feel. I wish I could treat people with disregard, indifference, and apathy.

But I can't.