Life and stuff
Long time no post. I've really enjoyed where I've been working in the last few months but it's been very draining. I've been working as a teaching assistant for 6 year olds and they were sweet but very excitable and very tiring. I've also been helping look after my niece in the evenings. By the end of the day I basically have had no energy and pretty much collapsed in a pile in front of the tv. Terrible I know. I've been getting terrible hayfever as well which hasn't helped. The upshot is I've done very few of the goals I've been meaning to do.
I went through a course of CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) which was somewhat helpful. In the meagre 13 sessions (it barely felt like I had scratched the surface of getting better) the therapist said I wasn't engaging with it properly but then I've always had difficulty with homework. (I was suffering from severe depression in school but no one realised and didn't do much work at home although in class the teachers said I was brilliant so everyone thought I was just being lazy and attention seeking).
I'm sure it helps some people but I was just coming out of a very bad patch in Jan/Feb and my Mum's illness I wasn't really in the frame of mind to deal with anything. In fact, I could barely drag myself into work let alone anything else.
I'm sorry to be going on about this emotional crap but I guess I need to write about it.
Anyway, I'm trying to reach out to friends more and to actually do things that make me happy instead of beating myself up about all the things I fall short of. So I went to a couple of friends' birthday parties that I hadn't seen in a while, and went to meet up with Tayles, Later_uk and their housemate for Game of Thrones watching and stuff and it's been great. I have to remember that friends actually like to see me instead of assuming they have better things to do! (My opinion not theirs, but surprisingly hard to let go of when my self-esteem is through the floor.)
Anyway, this drive to have fun has resulted in me shelling out lots of money to go to the London Film and Comic Con, which was fab even though I didn't get any celeb photos this year. I wasn't fussed really. I think I do really want to get into Cosplay though because it looks like so much fun. Some of the costumes were amazing. I was pretty happy that I got to meet Robert Rankin (the author) however. I think I definitely care more about meeting the writers than the actors. I just appreciate books more than tv I guess. Also, when you're meeting actors it feels weird for me because they are not the characters they just look like them. You want to thank them for bringing to life the characters you love so much but it seems strange to me. I did enjoy meeting George A Romero when Dan got his signature and shook his hand and said we were big fans. (I know, so slick right?)
There was also an old dude who was generously giving away sci-fi books to bring attention to a sci fi writers convention Loncon 3 Which sounded awesome so I blew a whole two weeks pay on tickets for Dan and myself so I guess that's our holiday for the year. It's going to be amazing because loads of sci fi and fantasy authors will be there and hopefully we will get to meet them. So cool.
Now I just need to find a summer job as my school job is over and nobody needs a teaching assistant over the holidays. Also to use all the fitness vouchers/dance lessons I bought on Groupon!