The hidden power in the words of a song
Years ago when Rascal Flatts released "I'm Moving On", I instantly fell in love with the song. It was not just the song, but the words and the meaning of the song. At the time the song first came out, I was going through some rough times with Michelle. I had no idea how much meaning that song held and how it would be an instrument in my life years down the road.
Over the past month of my life, I have dealt with the ghosts in my life and given way to the demons that were in my life. And yes, finally I am content with a past that I regret. These words....."I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness...for once I'm at peace with myself......".........WOW! I can honestly say that when I received the call to let me know Michelle had passed away, I found myself in the weakest point of my life. I have always been a strong person. I have always been able to wrap my arms around anything that life put in my pathway and make the best out of it. When her death hit me, I had no idea how to begin to get a grasp on it. I had been burdened with blame, and just as the words of the song illustrate, I had been trapped in the past for too long. I had a choice after her death; I could choose to continue to live in the past and let it hold me back and eventually grieve myself to death, or I could choose to accept what has happened and begin to move in with my life not forgetting what I shared with her.
Think about these words...."I've lived in this place and I know all the faces, each one is different but they're always the same....."....I had lived in my own life, knowing the faces of everyone had a place in my past as well as my current life. They were always the same. They never meant me any harm; they were there to welcome me the entire time. They were there to help me, to encourage me, to lift me up and to help carry me along through the roughest time of my life. I never dreamed that I would find a home with my family. For years, I felt like I was such an embarrassment to them, such a shameful part of their lives and I honestly felt like I would never have a place with them. I felt like I did not belong there. The truth is I do belong there. Through Michelle's death I have realized that I have a place with my friends, I have a place with my family. I know there are no guarantees in life, yet just as the artist of the song wrote in their lyrics, I know I am not alone. For years now I have only been able to see the years in my life passing me by. I have missed so many chances in life and so many good times in life by dwelling on the past. Again, in the words of the song, I have made up my mind that those times are gone.
The most powerful part of the song is this........."I've loved like I should and lived like I shouldn't, I had to loose everything to find out".......I did loose everything. When you loose the only person you have ever loved in your life, you have lost everything. Through her death, I realized that life is still waiting for me. I could have made this step years ago and dealt with the past to become a stronger person. My forgiveness came through God. His grace is beyond my comprehension and I am certainly not worthy of it, yet I am at a loss of words when I begin to think of how thankful I am for his grace in my life.
I want to thank my Dad for reminding me of this song and how much it means in my life. My Dad is a wonderful person. Through all of my mistakes in my life, he is there and will always be there. The love of a mother is beyond words, yet the love from your father is something that sort of makes you stick your chest out a bit and say...."My Dad loves me!"
Over the past month of my life, I have dealt with the ghosts in my life and given way to the demons that were in my life. And yes, finally I am content with a past that I regret. These words....."I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness...for once I'm at peace with myself......".........WOW! I can honestly say that when I received the call to let me know Michelle had passed away, I found myself in the weakest point of my life. I have always been a strong person. I have always been able to wrap my arms around anything that life put in my pathway and make the best out of it. When her death hit me, I had no idea how to begin to get a grasp on it. I had been burdened with blame, and just as the words of the song illustrate, I had been trapped in the past for too long. I had a choice after her death; I could choose to continue to live in the past and let it hold me back and eventually grieve myself to death, or I could choose to accept what has happened and begin to move in with my life not forgetting what I shared with her.
Think about these words...."I've lived in this place and I know all the faces, each one is different but they're always the same....."....I had lived in my own life, knowing the faces of everyone had a place in my past as well as my current life. They were always the same. They never meant me any harm; they were there to welcome me the entire time. They were there to help me, to encourage me, to lift me up and to help carry me along through the roughest time of my life. I never dreamed that I would find a home with my family. For years, I felt like I was such an embarrassment to them, such a shameful part of their lives and I honestly felt like I would never have a place with them. I felt like I did not belong there. The truth is I do belong there. Through Michelle's death I have realized that I have a place with my friends, I have a place with my family. I know there are no guarantees in life, yet just as the artist of the song wrote in their lyrics, I know I am not alone. For years now I have only been able to see the years in my life passing me by. I have missed so many chances in life and so many good times in life by dwelling on the past. Again, in the words of the song, I have made up my mind that those times are gone.
The most powerful part of the song is this........."I've loved like I should and lived like I shouldn't, I had to loose everything to find out".......I did loose everything. When you loose the only person you have ever loved in your life, you have lost everything. Through her death, I realized that life is still waiting for me. I could have made this step years ago and dealt with the past to become a stronger person. My forgiveness came through God. His grace is beyond my comprehension and I am certainly not worthy of it, yet I am at a loss of words when I begin to think of how thankful I am for his grace in my life.
I want to thank my Dad for reminding me of this song and how much it means in my life. My Dad is a wonderful person. Through all of my mistakes in my life, he is there and will always be there. The love of a mother is beyond words, yet the love from your father is something that sort of makes you stick your chest out a bit and say...."My Dad loves me!"