Trying to be human
So I'm trying to start reaching out to people again. I know I've been pretty much radio silence for a long time. It's been...complicated. For one thing, I've been sick and sicker and sicker for years, and that makes it hard to connect to the people you used to spend a lot of time with. It's hard to be around people who knew your old, healthy self. Because being sick like this, it does change you. And, well, what do you talk about when you do nothing of importance all day? I don't work, I don't go to school, I don't volunteer, I don't...anything much. I read and I watch TV and I write a bit and I knit and make new patterns (I'm writing one as I go right now - I'm making a stuffed monkey for my nephew, and writing it all down so I can maybe start selling these patterns). For another, well, I've been very limited on how much time I can spend out of bed, and when I'm in bed I lay on my side, and I haven't figured out a way to use my computer without hurting myself. So I only have the hours when I'm out of bed to be on the computer. I get up around the time we have dinner, and then I'm up for an unpredictable number of hours, depending on how active my back problems are. Until my fiance goes to bed, we rarely have our computers out because we spend the time together, usually watching TV (and me knitting).
Anyhow, I'm trying. After Chris goes to bed, I'm going to start pulling out my laptop. I'll probably be on until sometime between midnight and 2 am. I have to shut the screens off then, or else I can't get to sleep - lighted screens make my insomnia worse.
I'm also on Facebook, as Kali Blaze. If you want to look for me, I've got my current city listed as San Diego, and my profile pic is an image of Hudson running on the beach. I can probably talk more there, as I can manage Facebook on my tablet while I'm laying down.
Anyhow, I'm trying. After Chris goes to bed, I'm going to start pulling out my laptop. I'll probably be on until sometime between midnight and 2 am. I have to shut the screens off then, or else I can't get to sleep - lighted screens make my insomnia worse.
I'm also on Facebook, as Kali Blaze. If you want to look for me, I've got my current city listed as San Diego, and my profile pic is an image of Hudson running on the beach. I can probably talk more there, as I can manage Facebook on my tablet while I'm laying down.