Reasoning
As may already be evident, I have an insatiable urge to explain the reasoning behind everything I do.
In this case, the subject is my interaction with others. Specifically, Xemnas.
I instigated a brief instant message conversation with him tonight after dealing with his Organization's "Number II". Oh, I know that Xigbar is a tech genius. Invaluable to the Organization, I would guess.
Still, his personality is... not to my tastes.
Having read his post and responses to the community, I now highly suspect him of being one of the trolls who were solely responsible for the "hate" side of my Other's love/hate relationship with the image-board website known as 4chan.
That is beside the point.
As stated, this post is meant to explore the way I relate to Xemnas. Call it scheming if you like, but almost everything I say is at least roughly planned out, often with subtle yet very specific intentions. In the case of Xemnas, though I am very polite and respectful, I try to present myself as a peer. Perhaps not perfectly equal, but close.
I know that he is much more powerful than I physically, and more thoroughly educated scientifically (though I intent to learn as much as I can from him and even that scale somewhat), but unless I officially agree to serve as his subordinate, I shall not treat him as anything close to a master. A part of it is simply my own pride, yes, but it is also because of the respect I hold for him.
Now that I have learned the beauty of his dreams, I truly want him to succeed, not only for his sake and mine, but for everyone. Especially if he agrees to attempt the idea which Ryuu presented to me.
As such, Xemnas has become one of my responsibilities. I shall do whatever I can to help him create the dream he described to me, even if it means protecting him from his own ego by showing him that a lone Nobody who he considers to be barely above a Dusk still has the willpower and mental capacity to act as an equal. I want to be - am trying to be - someone (though I am No One) who can give him constructive criticism and advice while supporting him at the same time. If metaphors suit you, I want to be a sheath to his blade; guarding both himself and those around him from unnecessary damage.
I hope that this endeavor is not a foolish one.
((OOC: and only in the deepest, darkest depths of my Other's disturbed mind will the sword/sheath metaphor refer to anything else! Yes, I already went there. Please don't follow. ;p))
As a side note, the lyrics to the song I am listening to are, at least in some places, rather fitting. On the other hand, I hope that the parts which are not accurate never become so.
In this case, the subject is my interaction with others. Specifically, Xemnas.
I instigated a brief instant message conversation with him tonight after dealing with his Organization's "Number II". Oh, I know that Xigbar is a tech genius. Invaluable to the Organization, I would guess.
Still, his personality is... not to my tastes.
Having read his post and responses to the community, I now highly suspect him of being one of the trolls who were solely responsible for the "hate" side of my Other's love/hate relationship with the image-board website known as 4chan.
That is beside the point.
As stated, this post is meant to explore the way I relate to Xemnas. Call it scheming if you like, but almost everything I say is at least roughly planned out, often with subtle yet very specific intentions. In the case of Xemnas, though I am very polite and respectful, I try to present myself as a peer. Perhaps not perfectly equal, but close.
I know that he is much more powerful than I physically, and more thoroughly educated scientifically (though I intent to learn as much as I can from him and even that scale somewhat), but unless I officially agree to serve as his subordinate, I shall not treat him as anything close to a master. A part of it is simply my own pride, yes, but it is also because of the respect I hold for him.
Now that I have learned the beauty of his dreams, I truly want him to succeed, not only for his sake and mine, but for everyone. Especially if he agrees to attempt the idea which Ryuu presented to me.
As such, Xemnas has become one of my responsibilities. I shall do whatever I can to help him create the dream he described to me, even if it means protecting him from his own ego by showing him that a lone Nobody who he considers to be barely above a Dusk still has the willpower and mental capacity to act as an equal. I want to be - am trying to be - someone (though I am No One) who can give him constructive criticism and advice while supporting him at the same time. If metaphors suit you, I want to be a sheath to his blade; guarding both himself and those around him from unnecessary damage.
I hope that this endeavor is not a foolish one.
((OOC: and only in the deepest, darkest depths of my Other's disturbed mind will the sword/sheath metaphor refer to anything else! Yes, I already went there. Please don't follow. ;p))
As a side note, the lyrics to the song I am listening to are, at least in some places, rather fitting. On the other hand, I hope that the parts which are not accurate never become so.