surprisingly not feeling left out
There's a thing going around on Facebook among one of my circles of friends: the "16 random things about you" list. The idea is, you post a list of 16 things that people might not know about you and then tag 16 of your friends to prompt them to do the same thing.
This list has not come around to me yet; I haven't been tagged. One of my friends even said that she's not going to tag anyone since "everyone" had done it already. I wanted to say to her, "What, I'm not part of everyone?" But I didn't.
And truthfully, it doesn't really bother me (too much) that I haven't been tagged yet, even though I've thought of some cool things I could add to my list. The reason it doesn't bother me is that I don't really believe, as I used to, that people don't care about what I think, or worse, that they actively think I'm worthless. What I've come to learn, after years and years of self-esteem repair, is that other people think of me pretty much in the same way as I think of them.
So sometimes, I'm sure, a few of my friends peruse my profile in depth. Others (most of them, probably) read my status update and are satisfied. When I post pictures, some of my friends look at them, and one or two will make a comment. I am not at the forefront of most people's minds, just as most people are not at the forefront of my mind (at least, not for more than a few minutes). This is just the way it is, and finally I can be okay with it instead of insecure!
I just wish I had known all this thirty years ago.
This list has not come around to me yet; I haven't been tagged. One of my friends even said that she's not going to tag anyone since "everyone" had done it already. I wanted to say to her, "What, I'm not part of everyone?" But I didn't.
And truthfully, it doesn't really bother me (too much) that I haven't been tagged yet, even though I've thought of some cool things I could add to my list. The reason it doesn't bother me is that I don't really believe, as I used to, that people don't care about what I think, or worse, that they actively think I'm worthless. What I've come to learn, after years and years of self-esteem repair, is that other people think of me pretty much in the same way as I think of them.
So sometimes, I'm sure, a few of my friends peruse my profile in depth. Others (most of them, probably) read my status update and are satisfied. When I post pictures, some of my friends look at them, and one or two will make a comment. I am not at the forefront of most people's minds, just as most people are not at the forefront of my mind (at least, not for more than a few minutes). This is just the way it is, and finally I can be okay with it instead of insecure!
I just wish I had known all this thirty years ago.