the truth hurts.....
i pretty positive im the only person who even contemplates using this thing.
I wish i had something happy, or postive, or exciting to post....but i dont. I'm sick
of being unhappy and everytime i try to make a change for the better, i get knocked
2 steps back. I'm trying to be more understanding and accepting of the things that happen to me,
but no matter how much i try i just cant seem to keep my head up. im not saying/posting any of this
for "sympathy" in saying because it's the truth. How many times have i tried to make plans with one of you
and you've bailed? (yes im guily of it too but not as bad as most) how many times have i tried to talk to
someone outside of theatre or work, and i've gotten the brush off? it's not like i havent tried to keep in touch
with a number of people,but when you've pushed them away to the point of non existance, dont pretend you've
"missed them after all of this time" or "we should hang out" it's nothing but lies and you know it. Dont pretent to be something
you're not. It's been so long i dont remember the last time i really laughed, or actually enjoyed the event/activity i participated in.
And dont say "put yourself out there" cause i have many of times and nothing good has come from it. I'm sick of the lies, and the backstabbing.
The truth hurts,irritating saying, but it's true. we all have to deal with it sometimes. So no, will not sit here and pretend to be okay because im not.
I wish i had something happy, or postive, or exciting to post....but i dont. I'm sick
of being unhappy and everytime i try to make a change for the better, i get knocked
2 steps back. I'm trying to be more understanding and accepting of the things that happen to me,
but no matter how much i try i just cant seem to keep my head up. im not saying/posting any of this
for "sympathy" in saying because it's the truth. How many times have i tried to make plans with one of you
and you've bailed? (yes im guily of it too but not as bad as most) how many times have i tried to talk to
someone outside of theatre or work, and i've gotten the brush off? it's not like i havent tried to keep in touch
with a number of people,but when you've pushed them away to the point of non existance, dont pretend you've
"missed them after all of this time" or "we should hang out" it's nothing but lies and you know it. Dont pretent to be something
you're not. It's been so long i dont remember the last time i really laughed, or actually enjoyed the event/activity i participated in.
And dont say "put yourself out there" cause i have many of times and nothing good has come from it. I'm sick of the lies, and the backstabbing.
The truth hurts,irritating saying, but it's true. we all have to deal with it sometimes. So no, will not sit here and pretend to be okay because im not.