my random thoughts that make zero sense
this summer is not going to be like last summer. some of us have grown up and some things have just kind of shifted. and i guess i'm just going to have to accept that. although i haven't figured out how yet.
i think all that shit about how you never realize what you've got until its gone is so true and whoever came up with that thought is so profound. i always find myself missing someone and thinking that they were perfect and that i could never find anyone else nor could i ever want anyone else....after they're something that i can no longer have. and although i'm feeling that times ten right about now, i know i have to let him go too. and someday he'll fade into the background like the other ones did. maybe the thought of him will come with a laugh and a "what was i thinking??" later on. but right now i can't get him out of my head.
while we're on the subject of letting go and moving on, i'm definitely not the only one who needs to work on that. i have recently discovered that my parents have this idea that they still have me on a leash. they know that stuff goes on at college and that they have no control over it, so they figure once i get home they better pull in the reins. they still feel a need to protect me. so they give me silly rules like only one co-ed sleepover per summer and i could almost laugh at the ridiculousness of it if i wasn't so pissed off. i dont' know what they're trying to keep me from doing cuz i'm pretty sure i've already done it. and as for massive orgies and "i'll trade you my chlamydia for your herpes"....the likelihood of that happening is kind of small. but they don't seem to understand that. or maybe they're in the same place i am. we all just can't seem to let go.
i think all that shit about how you never realize what you've got until its gone is so true and whoever came up with that thought is so profound. i always find myself missing someone and thinking that they were perfect and that i could never find anyone else nor could i ever want anyone else....after they're something that i can no longer have. and although i'm feeling that times ten right about now, i know i have to let him go too. and someday he'll fade into the background like the other ones did. maybe the thought of him will come with a laugh and a "what was i thinking??" later on. but right now i can't get him out of my head.
while we're on the subject of letting go and moving on, i'm definitely not the only one who needs to work on that. i have recently discovered that my parents have this idea that they still have me on a leash. they know that stuff goes on at college and that they have no control over it, so they figure once i get home they better pull in the reins. they still feel a need to protect me. so they give me silly rules like only one co-ed sleepover per summer and i could almost laugh at the ridiculousness of it if i wasn't so pissed off. i dont' know what they're trying to keep me from doing cuz i'm pretty sure i've already done it. and as for massive orgies and "i'll trade you my chlamydia for your herpes"....the likelihood of that happening is kind of small. but they don't seem to understand that. or maybe they're in the same place i am. we all just can't seem to let go.