all i know is awkward silence
so these last few months havn't been so great for me. i really am working myself into the ground. the past couple of weeks i have been working 5 days a week and then volunteering 1. that has left me 1 day to myself a week and no one is ever around on my day off. everyones with there girlfriends or at work or the weather sucks or they DISSAPEARED and i end up in my house all day. i hate to sound like a cry baby but it really is making me feel depressed. my friend usuly dont even call me anymore because they think im ALWAYS at work. anything i do recreationaly lately is by myself. like surfing, running or going to the gym.
i realize i need to make some changes in my life. im putting my two weeks notice in at applebees tomorrow. i need to move on. It kinda sucks because i have really grown to like the people i work with, i just hate the hours and the stress that comes with the job. and not to mention the money isnt too bad. any other job i take i will be taking a pay cut. i plan on leaving on good terms just because i respect (most) of the managers and also calling out on short notice only screws over the other servers. no burning bridges even though i dont wanna go back to the bees :).
i havn't been in school for awile and not going to school and not working wont work for me. i think i would feel 10x worse then i do now if im just pissing the days away. but i think quiting applebees will be enough motivation for me to get going with an emt job.
its killing me that my future is not certin. i keep questioning weather or not i will actualy make the fire department. the eye test and heart rate test are what worry me the most. im not sure if i should get the eye surgery before my eye test or take it (and most likly fail) and then get the surgery done. having to wait this long is just driving me crazy. And now the state and city are in a money crisis and my dad keeps telling me about how when he was taking all of these tests they froze the civil service lists. That means they stopped hiring cops and firefighters. He said they even laid off cops when they froze the lists in the 70's. if that happens i think my last 2 years would have been a waste.
i actualy tried to get an emt job the other day. they were willing to hire me on the spot but i dont think it was worth it. They wanted me to work the 5am shift 5 days a week. im not opposed to that but they were so unprofessional. if i told all none of you reading this what they said to me you wouldnt belive me. i couldnt see myself working for that company. i cant do 911 because i have no experience and all of the transportaion companies are far away. im trying to talk to my parents about buying myself a car. nothing special. (ha! im gunna quit my job and then buy a car. now how could that possibly be smart) but once i have a car there are so many more jobs available to me.
i turn 21 soon! but i bet all of this is going to overshaddow that.
i realize i need to make some changes in my life. im putting my two weeks notice in at applebees tomorrow. i need to move on. It kinda sucks because i have really grown to like the people i work with, i just hate the hours and the stress that comes with the job. and not to mention the money isnt too bad. any other job i take i will be taking a pay cut. i plan on leaving on good terms just because i respect (most) of the managers and also calling out on short notice only screws over the other servers. no burning bridges even though i dont wanna go back to the bees :).
i havn't been in school for awile and not going to school and not working wont work for me. i think i would feel 10x worse then i do now if im just pissing the days away. but i think quiting applebees will be enough motivation for me to get going with an emt job.
its killing me that my future is not certin. i keep questioning weather or not i will actualy make the fire department. the eye test and heart rate test are what worry me the most. im not sure if i should get the eye surgery before my eye test or take it (and most likly fail) and then get the surgery done. having to wait this long is just driving me crazy. And now the state and city are in a money crisis and my dad keeps telling me about how when he was taking all of these tests they froze the civil service lists. That means they stopped hiring cops and firefighters. He said they even laid off cops when they froze the lists in the 70's. if that happens i think my last 2 years would have been a waste.
i actualy tried to get an emt job the other day. they were willing to hire me on the spot but i dont think it was worth it. They wanted me to work the 5am shift 5 days a week. im not opposed to that but they were so unprofessional. if i told all none of you reading this what they said to me you wouldnt belive me. i couldnt see myself working for that company. i cant do 911 because i have no experience and all of the transportaion companies are far away. im trying to talk to my parents about buying myself a car. nothing special. (ha! im gunna quit my job and then buy a car. now how could that possibly be smart) but once i have a car there are so many more jobs available to me.
i turn 21 soon! but i bet all of this is going to overshaddow that.