fatty no moreee!
i just got back from the doctors. after i was prodded and poked for blood in three different places ...they decided my viens are too deep and i have to go to the lab to get it done b/c their needles are skinnier and longer...ick. it hurt. anyway, the woman doc who i saw was the one that lead my sister into her breast reduction surgery and got it going ok for her. helped her a LOT. so, she said she def thinks i should get the stomach stapling. well, gastro bypass surgery if u want to get technical. she said especially if im having trouble holding my weright. like, my ankles and feet and calves being so achy. and my back just like...ugh.it always hurts when i stand for too long. there is just sooo much that goes into this. not only for my looks and how i feel but my health man. its getting unhealthy how heavy ive gotten. so, she said there shouldnt be a problem with the insurance company to let me do this...and if there is, shell take care of it. so, basically im def gettting it done. by the first of the year...beggning of january is when this will happen. whcih is good, i wouldnt wanna be recovering barely able to do anything for mny b-day and x-mas. and its a 6 week recovery. but VERY minimal side effects if at all. depends on the person. and she said nothng that isnt cleared up by like 3 months afte.r like nausea and shit like that. i can deal with that. this is soooo worth it. im nervous but very excited. this is the jump start i need. i was never meant to be this fat. this is the times in my life weher i sincerely hate that i ever found pot. and i mean it when i say i have to cut back EXTREMELY. especially if im doing this. and not because of the actual smoking..but the eating after. if i could smoke and not eat then i woudl be fine....but we all know its basically immpossible to do that when ur high. especially if ur a person like me who wants/needs/desires food 24/7. ya know? ok. im running on like 3 hours sleep here...so imma go back to bed. just say a little prayer that this happens asap. and when it does....say a prayer that everything goes well. love u all