Bastard. I. love. you.
Im pretty much hating you right now. Not you really, more like what your actions have led to. I really hate that because of my attatchment to you I also lie in the wake of what you do as well.... I also hate that I don't want to live without you.Don't take that the wrong way, I'm happy to be alive people...lol. But, seriously... I really just hate that this stupid situation is still lingering unanswered. I can't even stop all the different scenarios of possible outcomes... because we still don't know how it's going to end up! No, I just keep replaying all the shitty things that I'll have to go through without you around. Everywhere I go will be riddled with you... and I am afraid I won't be able to occupy myself enough to forget how sad it'll make me.Bastard.
Understand that I am allowed to be sad about this.
Understand that I am allowed to be sad about this.