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Something is about to happened to someone close to me and it will effect me in ways that I am not entirely ready for. I am SOOOOO happy for her and really proud of her but I am sad to see her go.
I spent some time with my cousin this weekend and she is the most amazing person. She lives her life for her. She doesn’t have time to constantly be worrying about what other people think of her and how it will effect everyone else. She does things because they make sense to her and that is all that matters. It was so refreshing to see someone live their life that way. I envied her. I tell myself I am a bigger and stronger person then I used to be but I am not really sure that is true. I let people and things get to me when they shouldn’t and I don’t know how to turn that off.