Worthy Sacrifice [chapter 2]
I watched her laugh from afar as always. Not wanting to let her know that I’m always stalked her. her eyes turn into crescents as she claps her hands together. I giggled at the beautiful view. It’s been a long time since I dare to look at her like this. It’s still bleeding. I mean my heart.
Frown forming my face as I realize who it is who make her laugh so hard like that. It’s him. And I hate it when he always around her. he should go to hell right away since he never looked at Tiffany in serious relationship like her do. Both of the facts are still made my heart bleeding silently.
“he doesn’t deserve her loves at all.” I grumble under my breath.
“I know right. He doesn’t deserve any of a good girl. You should talk to her, Sica. She should know everything.” Said Hyoyeon beside me. Look over the same spot as me.
She is right. Everybody’s right. I should tell her, but would she listen to me?
Taecyeon stood up and peck her cheek when the PD calling his name. Tiffany waves at his direction and stood up as she makes her way towards me and Hyoyeon. I keep my eyes on her, and form a fake smile before I made my way away from her to the dressing room.
It was like 15 minutes after I slump my body to the couch when I heard the door creak open and I saw him entered the room. I widened my eyes and straightened my sit. He never came into our dressing room before and even he came, it was never when I’m alone. So I called it like a… very-private-talk?
“what is it?” I ask looked at him coolly.
He scoffed and leaned against the wall with his arms crossed. “not even a Hello, Sica?”
I rolled my eyes. “just talk. I don’t have time for you.”
Taecyeon chuckled and cleared his throat after it. “Okay listen, I know you know everything about my jerk’s side and I knew you had feelings for Tiffany.” He walked closer and I stood up. “And I also knew that you hate me so freaking much. So that’s why I’m here. I wanna tell you one thing.” He smirk an evil smirk. And I know this is not good. “Get away from my way. I don’t have any problem with you and you’re not at the same level as me.”
“So? Did I looked like I’m gonna do it?” I scoffed. “go talk to someone else, Taec. You’re just afraid.”
When I’m about to walk passed him, his gripped on my shoulder was too strong and he pushed me to the wall so hard. I feel pain on my back and I closed my eyes and bit my lips.
“I’m not in the mood to slapped a girl or punch any of stupid little b*tch like you right now. So you better thinking about it and let Tiffany out of your eyes from now on or…”
I gulped. “or what?”
“Something very very bad would happen to you.” he paused and smirks. “And her.”
***
I wondered what would the very very bad thing gonna happen to me if I still keep my eyes on Tiffany and not bothering Taecyeon’s words earlier. Would he gonna kill me? Or it was just a cheap threat from him? I have no idea about this and I don’t wanted to the other girls know about this. Let me keep it by myself. Again.
“something bothering you?.”
I looked up at Taeyeon who stood in front of me with her carried face. I smile at her and shook my head.
“no, I’m fine, Taeng.”
What is the worst? Lie to your leader who really wanted to help whatever the problem you have or keep the things for yourself which was the jerk said to you earlier? Both are the same. So I pretend to lie to Taeyeon and not let her to help me this time since this was just me who made things like love looks more complicated than it’s already does.
“is it about her again?” she sat beside me. I nodded and sigh. “just if… I can help you trust me I would. Tiffany… she never listen to me anymore. Love made her blind.”
When I about to answer, the door creak opened and slammed hard until me and Taeyeon jumped because of shock. Sooyoung choked in the kitchen when she eat her lunch and Hyoyeon almost laughing at her if it’s not the sobs came from the door that stopped all activities in the dorm.
I looked at the four of them before I rushed to the door and saw Tiffany leaned against the door with eyes closed. Sobbing. I reach her hand and she opened her eyes. Within 2 seconds, she already hugging me tight and make my shoulder soaked because of her tears. I feel my heart stopped beating because of the sudden action. After I can processed what was just happened, I hugged her back. Caress her back gently as she started to hiccupped.
“what happen?” I ask but she didn’t answer. Of course I know what happen here. It must because that jerk did something idiot in front of her eyes again. I looked at the three girls behind me and the shrugged.
“Come on, Let’s go to your room. I’m gonna make you a cup of hot chocolate.”
I led her to her room and signaled Hyoyeon to make a hot chocolate to her. I closed the door behind me and let her sit on the bed. She’s still not let me go from her side. So I sit there in hope it can make me stop from crying. I rested my head on top of her head as I exhale her sweet aroma. It’s so relaxing until I looked up at the door and see Hyoyeon placed a cup of hot chocolate on the table. I nodded and she exited the room.
Tiffany’s gripped on my right arm tightened when I stood up about to took the hot chocolate to her. I looked at her who still lowered her head, hard look on her still beautiful face. She is scared, she needs someone to lead on. And she knew I will always there.
“I’m not leaving. Let me get the hot chocolate for you.” She stay still like that, still gripped on my arms. On exhale silently and hugged her. “I’m not going anywhere Tiff. I’m here.”
Tiffany buried her face on my chest and soaked it with her tears. This is so heartbreaking. I never wanted to see her cry and I fought my ego to not let my b*tchy side hurt her. but now, it’s not me who made her crying like this. That jerk. That Taecyeon. I need to stopped him from everything it is would make Tiffany hurt. I would never let my eyes go away from her.
“Fany, let me get your hot chocolate please? it’ll make you better.”
She loosen her grip and I took her hot chocolate and sat again beside her. She looked down at the cup and took it with trembled hands. So I help her, not wanted to make it fall into the floor.
“Let me help you.” I said as I lift it to her mouth and she drink it slowly. Take a couple of gulp and I smile when she is done. I put the cup on the floor and looked at her eyes when she tried to avoid my gaze.
“So? Wanna tell me a secret?”
Tiffany pouts but not answering my question but she hugged me instead. She buried her face on the crook of my neck and its send me shiver. Her warm breath burst into my neck. I closed my eyes, a small smile forming on my face. I hope we can stay like this forever without anything interrupt us. I need her. I need her in my heartbreaking life.
“J-Jessi”
Her voice snapped me from my thoughts. “Hm?” I answered without opened my eyes.
“I… I wanna ask you something.”
“What is it?”
She paused for awhile. “if… if you… if you saw someone who you loved kiss-kissing in front of your f-face, wh-what would you do?” I open my eyes and straightened my sit. Looked at her in surprise, push her from the hug. Tiffany refused to look at me. “I-I mean… you accidently saw it and… and…” she cannot finish her words and started to cry again. I know this would happen one time. And now is the time.
“You…?” I cupped her face and she nodded. “aw Fany~” I hugged her slightly and lift her chin to look at me.
“I just- I should… I should listen to you. He never loves me like I do but- I-I just… I can’t. I just can’t. it’s hurt me so much.”
When I about to response, I heard shouts and yells from the living room. I looked at Tiffany who notice it too and stood up with her followed me from behind, gripped my arm. I opened the door and saw Taeyeon, Sooyoung and Hyoyeon tried to pushed the only man in out from our dorm. Taecyeon smiling widely when he looked at me and Tiffany and the other three girls stopped when they’re notice.
My hands turn into a fist and my blood boiled up with anger. I gritted my teeth and shot him anger look. He made his way towards us and stopped centimeters away in front of me. His eyes telling me something sly to me but I careless about it.
“Go away.” I said and he scoffed. “Go away, Taec. You shouldn’t be here.”
“Sorry princess, but I’m here not to obey your command. I’m here because I wanted to meet my girlfriend.” He looked at behind my shoulder. His eyes tell me to move away but I stay still. “Can I?”
“She doesn’t want to be with you anymore.”
“Oh really?” he scoffed again and looked over my shoulder and smile sweetly to Tiffany. I scoffed. “You don’t love me anymore, Babe?”
I feel Tiffany gripped on my shoulder even tightly than before. She is hurt and scared and confused at the same time.
“Tiffany, I’m sorry. I’m really really sorry. It wasn’t me… it’s her who forced to kissed me.”
“Don’t listen to him, Tiff.” I said.
“You know I love you. I wouldn’t do that in purpose.”
“Close your ears. He is playing at you.”
Taecyeon look at me in the eyes with ‘she-won’t-listen-to-you’ look.
“I promise for the rest of my life, I wouldn’t do that again. My heart is yours.”
This time, I feel like froze when Tiffany’s gripped loosen from my arms. I looked behind me and saw her looked at Taecyeon fully in hope. I shook my head.
“No” I whisper. “No… don’t believe him.”
But she was like deaf. All she heard is Taecyeon’s words. “P-Promise?”
Taecyeon nodded and smile as he pulled Tiffany away from behind my back. “Promise.” he said.
I can feel my heart breaking into pieces. I can’t breathe when I looked at the view of two people hugging in front of my face. Hurt. She trusted his dumb words for the nth times and I feel like jumped from the canyon and death beneath it.
Taecyeon smile evilly. I can feel tears from the corner of my eyes waiting for me to let them go. I wanted to punch him on the face but I hold on myself to do it. Sooyoung walked towards me and pull me away from there. She embraces me and I cry in her hug when she closed our room’s door shut.
TBC
Frown forming my face as I realize who it is who make her laugh so hard like that. It’s him. And I hate it when he always around her. he should go to hell right away since he never looked at Tiffany in serious relationship like her do. Both of the facts are still made my heart bleeding silently.
“he doesn’t deserve her loves at all.” I grumble under my breath.
“I know right. He doesn’t deserve any of a good girl. You should talk to her, Sica. She should know everything.” Said Hyoyeon beside me. Look over the same spot as me.
She is right. Everybody’s right. I should tell her, but would she listen to me?
Taecyeon stood up and peck her cheek when the PD calling his name. Tiffany waves at his direction and stood up as she makes her way towards me and Hyoyeon. I keep my eyes on her, and form a fake smile before I made my way away from her to the dressing room.
It was like 15 minutes after I slump my body to the couch when I heard the door creak open and I saw him entered the room. I widened my eyes and straightened my sit. He never came into our dressing room before and even he came, it was never when I’m alone. So I called it like a… very-private-talk?
“what is it?” I ask looked at him coolly.
He scoffed and leaned against the wall with his arms crossed. “not even a Hello, Sica?”
I rolled my eyes. “just talk. I don’t have time for you.”
Taecyeon chuckled and cleared his throat after it. “Okay listen, I know you know everything about my jerk’s side and I knew you had feelings for Tiffany.” He walked closer and I stood up. “And I also knew that you hate me so freaking much. So that’s why I’m here. I wanna tell you one thing.” He smirk an evil smirk. And I know this is not good. “Get away from my way. I don’t have any problem with you and you’re not at the same level as me.”
“So? Did I looked like I’m gonna do it?” I scoffed. “go talk to someone else, Taec. You’re just afraid.”
When I’m about to walk passed him, his gripped on my shoulder was too strong and he pushed me to the wall so hard. I feel pain on my back and I closed my eyes and bit my lips.
“I’m not in the mood to slapped a girl or punch any of stupid little b*tch like you right now. So you better thinking about it and let Tiffany out of your eyes from now on or…”
I gulped. “or what?”
“Something very very bad would happen to you.” he paused and smirks. “And her.”
***
I wondered what would the very very bad thing gonna happen to me if I still keep my eyes on Tiffany and not bothering Taecyeon’s words earlier. Would he gonna kill me? Or it was just a cheap threat from him? I have no idea about this and I don’t wanted to the other girls know about this. Let me keep it by myself. Again.
“something bothering you?.”
I looked up at Taeyeon who stood in front of me with her carried face. I smile at her and shook my head.
“no, I’m fine, Taeng.”
What is the worst? Lie to your leader who really wanted to help whatever the problem you have or keep the things for yourself which was the jerk said to you earlier? Both are the same. So I pretend to lie to Taeyeon and not let her to help me this time since this was just me who made things like love looks more complicated than it’s already does.
“is it about her again?” she sat beside me. I nodded and sigh. “just if… I can help you trust me I would. Tiffany… she never listen to me anymore. Love made her blind.”
When I about to answer, the door creak opened and slammed hard until me and Taeyeon jumped because of shock. Sooyoung choked in the kitchen when she eat her lunch and Hyoyeon almost laughing at her if it’s not the sobs came from the door that stopped all activities in the dorm.
I looked at the four of them before I rushed to the door and saw Tiffany leaned against the door with eyes closed. Sobbing. I reach her hand and she opened her eyes. Within 2 seconds, she already hugging me tight and make my shoulder soaked because of her tears. I feel my heart stopped beating because of the sudden action. After I can processed what was just happened, I hugged her back. Caress her back gently as she started to hiccupped.
“what happen?” I ask but she didn’t answer. Of course I know what happen here. It must because that jerk did something idiot in front of her eyes again. I looked at the three girls behind me and the shrugged.
“Come on, Let’s go to your room. I’m gonna make you a cup of hot chocolate.”
I led her to her room and signaled Hyoyeon to make a hot chocolate to her. I closed the door behind me and let her sit on the bed. She’s still not let me go from her side. So I sit there in hope it can make me stop from crying. I rested my head on top of her head as I exhale her sweet aroma. It’s so relaxing until I looked up at the door and see Hyoyeon placed a cup of hot chocolate on the table. I nodded and she exited the room.
Tiffany’s gripped on my right arm tightened when I stood up about to took the hot chocolate to her. I looked at her who still lowered her head, hard look on her still beautiful face. She is scared, she needs someone to lead on. And she knew I will always there.
“I’m not leaving. Let me get the hot chocolate for you.” She stay still like that, still gripped on my arms. On exhale silently and hugged her. “I’m not going anywhere Tiff. I’m here.”
Tiffany buried her face on my chest and soaked it with her tears. This is so heartbreaking. I never wanted to see her cry and I fought my ego to not let my b*tchy side hurt her. but now, it’s not me who made her crying like this. That jerk. That Taecyeon. I need to stopped him from everything it is would make Tiffany hurt. I would never let my eyes go away from her.
“Fany, let me get your hot chocolate please? it’ll make you better.”
She loosen her grip and I took her hot chocolate and sat again beside her. She looked down at the cup and took it with trembled hands. So I help her, not wanted to make it fall into the floor.
“Let me help you.” I said as I lift it to her mouth and she drink it slowly. Take a couple of gulp and I smile when she is done. I put the cup on the floor and looked at her eyes when she tried to avoid my gaze.
“So? Wanna tell me a secret?”
Tiffany pouts but not answering my question but she hugged me instead. She buried her face on the crook of my neck and its send me shiver. Her warm breath burst into my neck. I closed my eyes, a small smile forming on my face. I hope we can stay like this forever without anything interrupt us. I need her. I need her in my heartbreaking life.
“J-Jessi”
Her voice snapped me from my thoughts. “Hm?” I answered without opened my eyes.
“I… I wanna ask you something.”
“What is it?”
She paused for awhile. “if… if you… if you saw someone who you loved kiss-kissing in front of your f-face, wh-what would you do?” I open my eyes and straightened my sit. Looked at her in surprise, push her from the hug. Tiffany refused to look at me. “I-I mean… you accidently saw it and… and…” she cannot finish her words and started to cry again. I know this would happen one time. And now is the time.
“You…?” I cupped her face and she nodded. “aw Fany~” I hugged her slightly and lift her chin to look at me.
“I just- I should… I should listen to you. He never loves me like I do but- I-I just… I can’t. I just can’t. it’s hurt me so much.”
When I about to response, I heard shouts and yells from the living room. I looked at Tiffany who notice it too and stood up with her followed me from behind, gripped my arm. I opened the door and saw Taeyeon, Sooyoung and Hyoyeon tried to pushed the only man in out from our dorm. Taecyeon smiling widely when he looked at me and Tiffany and the other three girls stopped when they’re notice.
My hands turn into a fist and my blood boiled up with anger. I gritted my teeth and shot him anger look. He made his way towards us and stopped centimeters away in front of me. His eyes telling me something sly to me but I careless about it.
“Go away.” I said and he scoffed. “Go away, Taec. You shouldn’t be here.”
“Sorry princess, but I’m here not to obey your command. I’m here because I wanted to meet my girlfriend.” He looked at behind my shoulder. His eyes tell me to move away but I stay still. “Can I?”
“She doesn’t want to be with you anymore.”
“Oh really?” he scoffed again and looked over my shoulder and smile sweetly to Tiffany. I scoffed. “You don’t love me anymore, Babe?”
I feel Tiffany gripped on my shoulder even tightly than before. She is hurt and scared and confused at the same time.
“Tiffany, I’m sorry. I’m really really sorry. It wasn’t me… it’s her who forced to kissed me.”
“Don’t listen to him, Tiff.” I said.
“You know I love you. I wouldn’t do that in purpose.”
“Close your ears. He is playing at you.”
Taecyeon look at me in the eyes with ‘she-won’t-listen-to-you’ look.
“I promise for the rest of my life, I wouldn’t do that again. My heart is yours.”
This time, I feel like froze when Tiffany’s gripped loosen from my arms. I looked behind me and saw her looked at Taecyeon fully in hope. I shook my head.
“No” I whisper. “No… don’t believe him.”
But she was like deaf. All she heard is Taecyeon’s words. “P-Promise?”
Taecyeon nodded and smile as he pulled Tiffany away from behind my back. “Promise.” he said.
I can feel my heart breaking into pieces. I can’t breathe when I looked at the view of two people hugging in front of my face. Hurt. She trusted his dumb words for the nth times and I feel like jumped from the canyon and death beneath it.
Taecyeon smile evilly. I can feel tears from the corner of my eyes waiting for me to let them go. I wanted to punch him on the face but I hold on myself to do it. Sooyoung walked towards me and pull me away from there. She embraces me and I cry in her hug when she closed our room’s door shut.
TBC