The Difference Between Us : Chapter Five - I Love You
genre : Romance, Drama
rating : PG-13
cast : Jessica/Tiffany
a/n: sorry for not update as fast as usual. i post this chapter at the same time i posted this fic on ssf. anyhow, this is the update. sorry for make you waited too long ^^ enjoy
“TIFFANY!” Jessica about to run after her girlfriend when Gyuri stopped her by hold on of her wrist and pulled her closer.
Gyuri stared at her with hoped eyes and hugged Jessica. Tons of eyes watched them in confused look and shocked at the same time. She struggled in Gyuri’s hug and boosted her harshly. She faced Gyuri in anger, palm turn into fists, ready to punch her anytime.
“this is all you’ve planned?!” she asked, angry. “what the hell do you want from me Park Gyuri?!”
The other blonde back forward a few steps before she answered Jessica calmly.
“I want to be with you”
Jessica scoffed. Gyuri make her way to Jessica and touched her face, she caressed it.
“don’t touched me!!” Jessica snapped her hand and pushed her again.
“Jessica, I love you”
“but I’m not!! Got that?! Can you just leave me alone and move on?!”
“no, I can’t!” Gyuri shouted back, make Jessica a little bit shock. “I love you, Jung Sooyeon! Why you can’t love me back??”
“that’s because you are so sly!! look what you’ve done now! LOOK! That’s why I can’t love you back!”
“but why you returned my kiss?!”
Jessica didn’t answer. She didn’t know why she returned the kiss; Her brain didn’t work, her heart beating fast. She have a lot of words to yelled to the other blonde but it all goes nowhere when Gyuri asked her that question. Why she was returned the kiss.
“silent now, huh?” asked Gyuri sharply. “don’t know how to answered a question, Sica?”
“shut up!”
“I know you want it”
“shut up”
“I know you love me”
“SHUT UP!!!” Jessica yelled at Gyuri and made the other girl stepped back. “just shut your mouth up!!”
“what’s wrong with you?! What’s so special from her? She is-“
“that’s because I love her!!”
Gyuri looked het in shock, everybody around them looked at Jessica in shock, with their disbelieve looks, mouth hung open. Jessica Jung chose Tiffany Hwang the nerd than Park Gyuri the goddess. Gyuri mouthed a ‘what’ with her mouth with a chuckled.
“is that sounds so weird to you? What do you hope? A ‘I just use her?’, ‘I just playing with her?’ or ‘I just want to make you jealous?’ huh? I told you once more” Jessica looked all the peopled around her and shouted.
“you guys, I told you once more, listen me carefully! I love Tiffany Hwang! I better with my nerd than with this Gyuri! She so much better than her” she pointed Gyuri with her forefinger. “I hate you” she hissed at Gyuri and run towards the University double door.
Jessica stopped at the parking lot in hope can found Tiffany, but there is no sign of her. The thick snow make half of her feet disappear and feel the coldness. She wrapped her coat tighter as she made her way towards the gate.
“Fany~~” she said sadly.
She bit her lower lip when tears about to drop on her face but wipe it away. She looks at her car at the parking lot, considering to ride it or not. She gulped and run towards the walkway in hope - full of hope - can found Tiffany.
She run, sprint, run, sprint, run again, and sprint until she out of her breath. She manage her breath as she hold on a three with her left hand. She kicked it hard and groan in frustration, the pain she felt on her toes didn’t stopped her to kick it even harder.
“stupid. stupid Jessica Jung. S-t-u-p-i-d!” she hissed angrily to herself and tears started drop on her face.
It is 9 in the afternoon and she still can’t found Tiffany. She came to her apartment, the park that Tiffany always visited, but Tiffany is nowhere can found. This is make her feel guilty, she keep blaming herself, cursed herself and sometimes slapped her own face. That’s her fault, and she must to admit it. There is no way to not do it to herself.
She took out her cell phone and got 20 miss called, all from her driver - she ignored it - and one text message, from Tiffany. She held on her breath when she opened the message.
[From: Tiffany]
thanks. For… everything.
“no. no please” she whisper to herself. Hands trembled, tears flowing down her face, heart stop beating, forget how to breathing. “please…” she whisper again before her vision become dark.
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“hey, she awake!”
Jessica hears Yuri voice and a hand on her face when she awake. She looks around and found her best friends smiled happily at her, Krystal stood beside them with her teary eyes. She ignored them when she hoped Tiffany will stand in front of her, but there is no Tiffany. Her heart started stop beating again and she breathed hard. She stood up, lifting the infuse cable when she felt dizzy on her head, it didn’t stopped her.
“stop it Sica” said Yuri hold on her body.
“must… find.. Tiffany” Jessica said still focused with the infuse on her right hand.
Yuri looked at her in sadness, Krystal cried again and Sooyoung hugged her. Jessica Groan when she successfully lifted the infused cable, she smiled weakly and about to run when Yuri hold on her wrist.
“stop” she said. “let me do it for you”
“no, don’t. I want to do it with myself. This…” tears flowing down her face. “this is my fault. I’ll be okay, yul. Take my sister home”
With that, Jessica left the 3 girls behind her. Lucky, the doctor didn’t make her wore the hospital dress so she can escape easily. She exited the hospital and found her driver at the parking lot, she walked towards him.
“oh Miss… Jung? What are you doing here?” asked her driver confused.
“can I borrow the car?”
“f-for what? Let me go with you”
“no” she sigh. “can you just please give me the key?”
Her driver gave Jessica the key and bowed in respect when Jessica go inside the car.
“where’d you go, Miss Jung?”
Jessica smiled weakly at him.
“I need to… to find my girlfriend. Tiffany.. Hwang, Your… daughter”
Jessica pushed the pedal gas and left her shock driver standing like a fool at the parking lot. The ache on her head didn’t stop her. As far as she knows she must to find Tiffany and explained what happened at the collage earlier.
Oh you curious why Jessica use Gyuri last semester? Well, we all know that Jessica the Ice Princess had a lot, no… tons of fans - most of them are girls. She was born for this I guess, with bunched of people followed her everywhere she goes. At the first time she enjoy it, but as months and years passed she get annoyed with that, tired of those people. One day she thought, if she had a girlfriend maybe all of her fans wouldn’t following her again, maybe they will be disappear. So, she decided to date Park Gyuri the goddess of the University. Yes the goddess, and that’s the mistake she made. She has to date a weirdo, a bookworm or a… freak to make her fans go away from her. But goddess, That will be gain some more fans. And that’s what happening now, she didn’t lose her fans nor make them stay away from her. After a couple of months dating Gyuri, Jessica decided to break up with her. Did Gyuri knows that Jessica use her? Duh, of course she knows. No matter how harsh Jessica told her about that, no matter how cold Jessica’s response, she always do anything to make the Ice Princess hers. This Jessica’s fault for sure. Did she regret it? After Tiffany looked at her with her broken look, she regretted it, so much.
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Tiffany can’t stop her cried even Taeyeon and Sunny do their best dorky side to cheer her up. She stared blankly at the cup of hot chocolate Sunny made for her. She hasn’t touched it yet and it looks like cold already. She is at Taeyeon apartment now, not wanted to go home because she knows Jessica would come there. She stood up and made her way towards the front door.
“where are you going?” asked Sunny.
“I need some fresh air. Don’t worry, I’ll be okay”
“are you sure?” asked Taeyeon when Tiffany about to opened the door. Tiffany nodded and left the apartment.
It’s so freezing outside, the thick snow and the cold breeze made her shiver a little. Tiffany wrapped her coat tightly as she made her way down the street. She let out a heavy pain sigh and lowered her head when the image of Jessica and Gyuri kissing coming back to her mind. Her eyes swollen because of too much cried.
‘so this is why Jessica said that she likes me, not loves me. That’s because of Gyuri? I thought they were broke up already’
Tiffany bit her lower lip when tears flowing down her face again. She loves Jessica, she trusted her, and when she saw Jessica kissed the other girl, her heart break into pieces, too much pain.
‘I shouldn’t fall in love so easily towards her. Maybe they’re right, I should know who am I. Jessica wouldn’t fall in love with someone like me’
She wiped the tears with her palm and looked at the snowy street road. There is a lot of sweet couple walk hand in hand in front of her and make her looked at them enviously. She entered a small coffee bar and ordered a caramel coffee to herself. She exited the coffee bar and walked again in the busy street of Seoul as she took a couple of gulp of her caramel coffee.
She made her way to the park not far from there and took a sit at the swing. She always came to this park when she feels anything bothered her. This is her favorite place, so far. Tiffany stared at the snow below her, a bottle of caramel coffee in her hands, mind flying everywhere (not to mention that the image of Jessica and Gyuri is on her mind again). She was too busy with her own thought and didn’t notice someone stood not far from her, staring at her sadly.
“there you are”
Tiffany looked up beside her and found Jessica stood there just with a t-shirt and a short shorts. Jessica walked towards her and the other girl looked anywhere, don’t want to looked at the blonde. Jessica looked at her with teary eyes, this is the first time ever Jessica cried in front of someone she called girlfriend.
“what do you want?” asked Tiffany coldly.
Jessica stayed silent, lowered her head as tears began to flowing down her smooth cheeks. She wiped it away and looked at Tiffany who looked away from her with.
“Tiff, I-I’m sorry”
“for what?”
“for what happened earlier. I swear there’s nothing between me and Gyuri”
“you kissed her” Tiffany stood up, facing Jessica with blank expression.
“I… I didn’t, she kissed me I swear”
“yeah, sure you didn’t” she scoffed and walked through her but Jessica hold on her wrist. She stopped, back facing the blonde.
“don’t touch me”
Jessica looked at her in surprise, mouth hung open, hand trembled, cried, sobbing and breathed hardly.
“Fany-ah~” she said and let go of Tiffany’s hand. “you hate me now?”
Tiffany let out a sigh and facing her. Now Jessica can see Tiffany’s pain look, her watery eyes stared at the blonde sharply.
“oh, now you care?” her tears flowing down again. For the nth times today. “who I am to you Jess?!” she yelled.
“y-you are my girlfriend” Jessica answered, cried too.
“I am?! Than who is Gyuri to you?! Your girlfriend too??” Tiffany scoffed. “I should know that you just like me, not love me. You know what? I think they’re all right. I should know who am I, I don’t deserve you. I’m just Tiffany the… the nerd and you are Jessica the princess”
Tiffany bit her lower lip and wiped her tears.
“I think… let’s.. break up”
“what?? We- break- wa-wait.. please, don’t”
“I’m sorry. This is hard but…” Tiffany can’t finish her word. “Jessi, this is hard to me. I trusted you, I really do”
Jessica walked towards Tiffany and hold on both of her hands but Tiffany let go of the hold of Jessica hands. Jessica lowered her head when Tiffany walked away from her.
“Tiffany”
Tiffany stopped.
“I love you. Do you know that?”
Tiffany gulped, her heart beating do fast. She turn around and facing Jessica again. The older girl looked at her still crying and Tiffany realized something. Jessica never cried in front of her friends, her girlfriend.
“you don’t know that I’m falling in love with you too, right?” she asked, sobbing.
“I…”
“Tiffany Hwang, I love you. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you but… but… that Gyuri was kissed me, I didn’t returned the kissed, I swear”
Tiffany let out a sigh and made her way to the blonde. She can’t see Jessica cried like this, besides Jessica - still - her girlfriend.
“really?”
Jessica nodded and bit her lips.
“you can asked Yuri and Sooyoung if you don’t believe me”
“no need. I wanna hear it from you”
“I don’t want to break up with you” she said, hopeless.
Tiffany can help but smiled and hugged Jessica tightly.
“can I trusted you?” Jessica nodded. “let’s try it again than”
TBC
rating : PG-13
cast : Jessica/Tiffany
a/n: sorry for not update as fast as usual. i post this chapter at the same time i posted this fic on ssf. anyhow, this is the update. sorry for make you waited too long ^^ enjoy
“TIFFANY!” Jessica about to run after her girlfriend when Gyuri stopped her by hold on of her wrist and pulled her closer.
Gyuri stared at her with hoped eyes and hugged Jessica. Tons of eyes watched them in confused look and shocked at the same time. She struggled in Gyuri’s hug and boosted her harshly. She faced Gyuri in anger, palm turn into fists, ready to punch her anytime.
“this is all you’ve planned?!” she asked, angry. “what the hell do you want from me Park Gyuri?!”
The other blonde back forward a few steps before she answered Jessica calmly.
“I want to be with you”
Jessica scoffed. Gyuri make her way to Jessica and touched her face, she caressed it.
“don’t touched me!!” Jessica snapped her hand and pushed her again.
“Jessica, I love you”
“but I’m not!! Got that?! Can you just leave me alone and move on?!”
“no, I can’t!” Gyuri shouted back, make Jessica a little bit shock. “I love you, Jung Sooyeon! Why you can’t love me back??”
“that’s because you are so sly!! look what you’ve done now! LOOK! That’s why I can’t love you back!”
“but why you returned my kiss?!”
Jessica didn’t answer. She didn’t know why she returned the kiss; Her brain didn’t work, her heart beating fast. She have a lot of words to yelled to the other blonde but it all goes nowhere when Gyuri asked her that question. Why she was returned the kiss.
“silent now, huh?” asked Gyuri sharply. “don’t know how to answered a question, Sica?”
“shut up!”
“I know you want it”
“shut up”
“I know you love me”
“SHUT UP!!!” Jessica yelled at Gyuri and made the other girl stepped back. “just shut your mouth up!!”
“what’s wrong with you?! What’s so special from her? She is-“
“that’s because I love her!!”
Gyuri looked het in shock, everybody around them looked at Jessica in shock, with their disbelieve looks, mouth hung open. Jessica Jung chose Tiffany Hwang the nerd than Park Gyuri the goddess. Gyuri mouthed a ‘what’ with her mouth with a chuckled.
“is that sounds so weird to you? What do you hope? A ‘I just use her?’, ‘I just playing with her?’ or ‘I just want to make you jealous?’ huh? I told you once more” Jessica looked all the peopled around her and shouted.
“you guys, I told you once more, listen me carefully! I love Tiffany Hwang! I better with my nerd than with this Gyuri! She so much better than her” she pointed Gyuri with her forefinger. “I hate you” she hissed at Gyuri and run towards the University double door.
Jessica stopped at the parking lot in hope can found Tiffany, but there is no sign of her. The thick snow make half of her feet disappear and feel the coldness. She wrapped her coat tighter as she made her way towards the gate.
“Fany~~” she said sadly.
She bit her lower lip when tears about to drop on her face but wipe it away. She looks at her car at the parking lot, considering to ride it or not. She gulped and run towards the walkway in hope - full of hope - can found Tiffany.
She run, sprint, run, sprint, run again, and sprint until she out of her breath. She manage her breath as she hold on a three with her left hand. She kicked it hard and groan in frustration, the pain she felt on her toes didn’t stopped her to kick it even harder.
“stupid. stupid Jessica Jung. S-t-u-p-i-d!” she hissed angrily to herself and tears started drop on her face.
It is 9 in the afternoon and she still can’t found Tiffany. She came to her apartment, the park that Tiffany always visited, but Tiffany is nowhere can found. This is make her feel guilty, she keep blaming herself, cursed herself and sometimes slapped her own face. That’s her fault, and she must to admit it. There is no way to not do it to herself.
She took out her cell phone and got 20 miss called, all from her driver - she ignored it - and one text message, from Tiffany. She held on her breath when she opened the message.
[From: Tiffany]
thanks. For… everything.
“no. no please” she whisper to herself. Hands trembled, tears flowing down her face, heart stop beating, forget how to breathing. “please…” she whisper again before her vision become dark.
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“hey, she awake!”
Jessica hears Yuri voice and a hand on her face when she awake. She looks around and found her best friends smiled happily at her, Krystal stood beside them with her teary eyes. She ignored them when she hoped Tiffany will stand in front of her, but there is no Tiffany. Her heart started stop beating again and she breathed hard. She stood up, lifting the infuse cable when she felt dizzy on her head, it didn’t stopped her.
“stop it Sica” said Yuri hold on her body.
“must… find.. Tiffany” Jessica said still focused with the infuse on her right hand.
Yuri looked at her in sadness, Krystal cried again and Sooyoung hugged her. Jessica Groan when she successfully lifted the infused cable, she smiled weakly and about to run when Yuri hold on her wrist.
“stop” she said. “let me do it for you”
“no, don’t. I want to do it with myself. This…” tears flowing down her face. “this is my fault. I’ll be okay, yul. Take my sister home”
With that, Jessica left the 3 girls behind her. Lucky, the doctor didn’t make her wore the hospital dress so she can escape easily. She exited the hospital and found her driver at the parking lot, she walked towards him.
“oh Miss… Jung? What are you doing here?” asked her driver confused.
“can I borrow the car?”
“f-for what? Let me go with you”
“no” she sigh. “can you just please give me the key?”
Her driver gave Jessica the key and bowed in respect when Jessica go inside the car.
“where’d you go, Miss Jung?”
Jessica smiled weakly at him.
“I need to… to find my girlfriend. Tiffany.. Hwang, Your… daughter”
Jessica pushed the pedal gas and left her shock driver standing like a fool at the parking lot. The ache on her head didn’t stop her. As far as she knows she must to find Tiffany and explained what happened at the collage earlier.
Oh you curious why Jessica use Gyuri last semester? Well, we all know that Jessica the Ice Princess had a lot, no… tons of fans - most of them are girls. She was born for this I guess, with bunched of people followed her everywhere she goes. At the first time she enjoy it, but as months and years passed she get annoyed with that, tired of those people. One day she thought, if she had a girlfriend maybe all of her fans wouldn’t following her again, maybe they will be disappear. So, she decided to date Park Gyuri the goddess of the University. Yes the goddess, and that’s the mistake she made. She has to date a weirdo, a bookworm or a… freak to make her fans go away from her. But goddess, That will be gain some more fans. And that’s what happening now, she didn’t lose her fans nor make them stay away from her. After a couple of months dating Gyuri, Jessica decided to break up with her. Did Gyuri knows that Jessica use her? Duh, of course she knows. No matter how harsh Jessica told her about that, no matter how cold Jessica’s response, she always do anything to make the Ice Princess hers. This Jessica’s fault for sure. Did she regret it? After Tiffany looked at her with her broken look, she regretted it, so much.
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Tiffany can’t stop her cried even Taeyeon and Sunny do their best dorky side to cheer her up. She stared blankly at the cup of hot chocolate Sunny made for her. She hasn’t touched it yet and it looks like cold already. She is at Taeyeon apartment now, not wanted to go home because she knows Jessica would come there. She stood up and made her way towards the front door.
“where are you going?” asked Sunny.
“I need some fresh air. Don’t worry, I’ll be okay”
“are you sure?” asked Taeyeon when Tiffany about to opened the door. Tiffany nodded and left the apartment.
It’s so freezing outside, the thick snow and the cold breeze made her shiver a little. Tiffany wrapped her coat tightly as she made her way down the street. She let out a heavy pain sigh and lowered her head when the image of Jessica and Gyuri kissing coming back to her mind. Her eyes swollen because of too much cried.
‘so this is why Jessica said that she likes me, not loves me. That’s because of Gyuri? I thought they were broke up already’
Tiffany bit her lower lip when tears flowing down her face again. She loves Jessica, she trusted her, and when she saw Jessica kissed the other girl, her heart break into pieces, too much pain.
‘I shouldn’t fall in love so easily towards her. Maybe they’re right, I should know who am I. Jessica wouldn’t fall in love with someone like me’
She wiped the tears with her palm and looked at the snowy street road. There is a lot of sweet couple walk hand in hand in front of her and make her looked at them enviously. She entered a small coffee bar and ordered a caramel coffee to herself. She exited the coffee bar and walked again in the busy street of Seoul as she took a couple of gulp of her caramel coffee.
She made her way to the park not far from there and took a sit at the swing. She always came to this park when she feels anything bothered her. This is her favorite place, so far. Tiffany stared at the snow below her, a bottle of caramel coffee in her hands, mind flying everywhere (not to mention that the image of Jessica and Gyuri is on her mind again). She was too busy with her own thought and didn’t notice someone stood not far from her, staring at her sadly.
“there you are”
Tiffany looked up beside her and found Jessica stood there just with a t-shirt and a short shorts. Jessica walked towards her and the other girl looked anywhere, don’t want to looked at the blonde. Jessica looked at her with teary eyes, this is the first time ever Jessica cried in front of someone she called girlfriend.
“what do you want?” asked Tiffany coldly.
Jessica stayed silent, lowered her head as tears began to flowing down her smooth cheeks. She wiped it away and looked at Tiffany who looked away from her with.
“Tiff, I-I’m sorry”
“for what?”
“for what happened earlier. I swear there’s nothing between me and Gyuri”
“you kissed her” Tiffany stood up, facing Jessica with blank expression.
“I… I didn’t, she kissed me I swear”
“yeah, sure you didn’t” she scoffed and walked through her but Jessica hold on her wrist. She stopped, back facing the blonde.
“don’t touch me”
Jessica looked at her in surprise, mouth hung open, hand trembled, cried, sobbing and breathed hardly.
“Fany-ah~” she said and let go of Tiffany’s hand. “you hate me now?”
Tiffany let out a sigh and facing her. Now Jessica can see Tiffany’s pain look, her watery eyes stared at the blonde sharply.
“oh, now you care?” her tears flowing down again. For the nth times today. “who I am to you Jess?!” she yelled.
“y-you are my girlfriend” Jessica answered, cried too.
“I am?! Than who is Gyuri to you?! Your girlfriend too??” Tiffany scoffed. “I should know that you just like me, not love me. You know what? I think they’re all right. I should know who am I, I don’t deserve you. I’m just Tiffany the… the nerd and you are Jessica the princess”
Tiffany bit her lower lip and wiped her tears.
“I think… let’s.. break up”
“what?? We- break- wa-wait.. please, don’t”
“I’m sorry. This is hard but…” Tiffany can’t finish her word. “Jessi, this is hard to me. I trusted you, I really do”
Jessica walked towards Tiffany and hold on both of her hands but Tiffany let go of the hold of Jessica hands. Jessica lowered her head when Tiffany walked away from her.
“Tiffany”
Tiffany stopped.
“I love you. Do you know that?”
Tiffany gulped, her heart beating do fast. She turn around and facing Jessica again. The older girl looked at her still crying and Tiffany realized something. Jessica never cried in front of her friends, her girlfriend.
“you don’t know that I’m falling in love with you too, right?” she asked, sobbing.
“I…”
“Tiffany Hwang, I love you. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you but… but… that Gyuri was kissed me, I didn’t returned the kissed, I swear”
Tiffany let out a sigh and made her way to the blonde. She can’t see Jessica cried like this, besides Jessica - still - her girlfriend.
“really?”
Jessica nodded and bit her lips.
“you can asked Yuri and Sooyoung if you don’t believe me”
“no need. I wanna hear it from you”
“I don’t want to break up with you” she said, hopeless.
Tiffany can help but smiled and hugged Jessica tightly.
“can I trusted you?” Jessica nodded. “let’s try it again than”
TBC