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[sonataofsirens]

i find myself in my dreams time traveling to see you 
just to tell you something. to whisper it in your ear
i feel like i carry the worlds weight upon my back and when go to find you 
you cant be found. or i cant catch up to you
and if i yell to you i feel like i have a sore throat and my jaw is unhinged
i dont even know what my dreams are about ..
but there always in that same pattern..repeated over and over again
am i losing it? i think i am
maybe i feel that way ..maybe i feel if i could go back in time..all would be well again
i definitely screwed up somewhere. or maybe it was supposed to happen that way
all i know is i cant stop having these dreams...i wake up and wish i was back in my dream
cause at least i have a chance there. i know that ill never see you again and it bugs me
where is god when i need him? and why do i keep seeing shooting stars ..
when i know that my wishes wont be fulfilled..is it supposed to be a self concious thing?
or is wishing upon a falling star..real and your wishes do come true
so far nothing has happened..and i find myself writing in this thing again
maybe it takes time but all i know is..that i love you and i miss you