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So I never update, sue me. This is probably just going to be a bunch of ramblings, I'm not in any mood to actually make sense.
I miss my friends so much. I wish I could turn back time to a year ago and have everything go back to the way they used to be. I know I can't. I hate thinking this way..thinking that if only you could turn back time you would never have befriended that certain someone or you wouldn't do something that you now regret..it's not any way to live but I can't stop thinking. Speaking of which, I have to admit I'm jealous that everyone got to go away and start new. I feel like I'm not even in college because I'm not dorming or anything. Just seeing pictures of everyone having fun on their own with their new friends just makes me depressed..bleh. The sad part is by the time I get home from all the commuting and classes and walking and everything else, I'm so tired to even call anyone. I really hope I get a dorm next semester because commuting is going to be the death of me.
On a lighter note, I am now officially addicted to Solitaire. I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing, but we'll soon find out.
This hot weather is really disgusting and needs to stop. I want it to be so cold that I can feel the chill down to the BONE, man. I'm not really asking for much, am I?
I guess I'll elaborate a little more on the commuting aspect of college life. As much as I complain, it's not as bad as I had expected. Getting to school doesn't bother me, it really doesn't. Buttttt after a long day, commuting back home just eats at you. It would've been a lot easier just to roll out of bed 10 minutes before class and head over to CSI, but I definitely needed some type of change in my life. I like Hunter itself, I met new people and I've rekindled old friendships. You learn new things about yourself when you travel alone 3 hours a day..you learn to appreciate your new surroundings and you become more vigilant. You think a lot when you have nothing better to do..but then again sometimes I just stare off into space and daydream ;)
So my allergies..sinuses..WHATEVER they are are acting up again. I sounded a bit nasal yesterday and this morning I woke up with lots of great stuff going on. I'm taking Benadryl: Severe Allergy & Sinus Headache medicine. Maximum strength for maximum results! :) It works good but it's already wearing off, even though I took it around 7pm. Psh.
My moms sleeping on the couch. I wish she would go upstairs so I could lay down with my pillow and blankets and watch TV. Hmph.
My birthday is in 16 days. The big 1-8. I'm not really that excited yet..I guess I will be in about a week. The main thing to be excited about is that I'm off from school, so that's always a plus. Everyone will still be away so that flat out sucks. I don't really know what I want from my parents yet..I have been wanting a trumpet because I haven't played in so long, if only they weren't so damn expensive. I was thinking of renting one but I don't know if paying that money would be worthwhile.
I just found my English professor on MySpace. That's..weird.
I feel like I have a lot more to say, but I just don't know what. I've just been so nostalgic lately..if I listen to a song or smell a certain smell I start with the memories. Sheesh, what's wrong with me?
I haven't been using my digital camera at all, it makes me sad. My charger is at Gabe's house and plus I don't feel like uploading all the pictures that are still on my memory card. Ahh, one day.
For now, I'm heading to bed. I have a fulllll day ahead of me tomorrow. Waking up at 9..I have to catch the 11 or 11:30 ferry to be early for my 1:10 class. I like to chill out a little before class starts instead of just rushing straight from the subway. It helps me relax a little bit in such a crazy, mixed up city. All in all, I get home around 9ish. Eh, I'm exhausted just thinking about it.
Welp..goodnight, all.
I miss my friends so much. I wish I could turn back time to a year ago and have everything go back to the way they used to be. I know I can't. I hate thinking this way..thinking that if only you could turn back time you would never have befriended that certain someone or you wouldn't do something that you now regret..it's not any way to live but I can't stop thinking. Speaking of which, I have to admit I'm jealous that everyone got to go away and start new. I feel like I'm not even in college because I'm not dorming or anything. Just seeing pictures of everyone having fun on their own with their new friends just makes me depressed..bleh. The sad part is by the time I get home from all the commuting and classes and walking and everything else, I'm so tired to even call anyone. I really hope I get a dorm next semester because commuting is going to be the death of me.
On a lighter note, I am now officially addicted to Solitaire. I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing, but we'll soon find out.
This hot weather is really disgusting and needs to stop. I want it to be so cold that I can feel the chill down to the BONE, man. I'm not really asking for much, am I?
I guess I'll elaborate a little more on the commuting aspect of college life. As much as I complain, it's not as bad as I had expected. Getting to school doesn't bother me, it really doesn't. Buttttt after a long day, commuting back home just eats at you. It would've been a lot easier just to roll out of bed 10 minutes before class and head over to CSI, but I definitely needed some type of change in my life. I like Hunter itself, I met new people and I've rekindled old friendships. You learn new things about yourself when you travel alone 3 hours a day..you learn to appreciate your new surroundings and you become more vigilant. You think a lot when you have nothing better to do..but then again sometimes I just stare off into space and daydream ;)
So my allergies..sinuses..WHATEVER they are are acting up again. I sounded a bit nasal yesterday and this morning I woke up with lots of great stuff going on. I'm taking Benadryl: Severe Allergy & Sinus Headache medicine. Maximum strength for maximum results! :) It works good but it's already wearing off, even though I took it around 7pm. Psh.
My moms sleeping on the couch. I wish she would go upstairs so I could lay down with my pillow and blankets and watch TV. Hmph.
My birthday is in 16 days. The big 1-8. I'm not really that excited yet..I guess I will be in about a week. The main thing to be excited about is that I'm off from school, so that's always a plus. Everyone will still be away so that flat out sucks. I don't really know what I want from my parents yet..I have been wanting a trumpet because I haven't played in so long, if only they weren't so damn expensive. I was thinking of renting one but I don't know if paying that money would be worthwhile.
I just found my English professor on MySpace. That's..weird.
I feel like I have a lot more to say, but I just don't know what. I've just been so nostalgic lately..if I listen to a song or smell a certain smell I start with the memories. Sheesh, what's wrong with me?
I haven't been using my digital camera at all, it makes me sad. My charger is at Gabe's house and plus I don't feel like uploading all the pictures that are still on my memory card. Ahh, one day.
For now, I'm heading to bed. I have a fulllll day ahead of me tomorrow. Waking up at 9..I have to catch the 11 or 11:30 ferry to be early for my 1:10 class. I like to chill out a little before class starts instead of just rushing straight from the subway. It helps me relax a little bit in such a crazy, mixed up city. All in all, I get home around 9ish. Eh, I'm exhausted just thinking about it.
Welp..goodnight, all.