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[sonar713]

So tomorrow marks three weeks since my dad passed away. I hate the feeling of waking up in the morning and not being able to see him. Things I feel have been getting worse in a sense, 'cause I miss him more and more as each day passes. I think about the future all the time. I picture my wedding day and think about who will walk me down the isle, or

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[supakila]

***OPM - Brighter Side***

Sometimes I forget that you're not here
Can't believe it's been a year
Since you flew away
And I never got to say goodbye
Good times
Hangin' out til the break of dawn
Listening to Bob
And singin along
Every little thing it's gonna be
It's gonna be all right...

I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side
And one day I'm gonna be there too
Where the sun is shining and the water's blue
I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side
I know you're somewhere where you're finally free
You'll always be a part of me
Like the moon is to the sea

***Styx - Dear John***

Dear John I knew you
About as well as anyone
We were the wild ones
So sure those days would never end
Now they're only memories my friend

Dear John I'll see you
Some day again

I swear I saw you
On a crowded street today
I almost called your name
Thinking of all those yesterdays
Heaven help me
How I miss my friend

Dear John I'll see you
Some day again

There'll be celebration
When all will be revealed
We'll have a reunion
High on a hill

Dear John how are you
God knows it's heaven where you are
Find some peace there
May it never end

Dear John my heart knows
We'll meet again
Dear John I'll see you....
Some day again

***Yellowcard - Life of a Salesman***

What's a dad for dad?
Tell me why I'm here dad
Whisper in my ear that I'm growing up to be a better man, dad
Everything is fine dad
Proud that you are mine dad
Cause I know I'm growing up to be a better man

Father I will always be
That same boy that stood by the sea
And watched you tower over me
Now I'm older I wanna be the same as you

What's a dad for dad?
Taught me how to stand, dad
Took me by the hand and you showed me how to be a bigger man, dad
Listen when you talk, dad
Follow where you walk, dad
And you know that I will always do the best I can

[sonar713]

thank you :) Does it get better over time? 'cause I find that it's almost harder. I don't know if this is hard for you to talk about. I feel like I'm just gonna learn to find what normal will be for me.

[supakila]

Yeah, it gets better over time. Lots better. I know exactly what you're talking about, feeling absolutely horrible and feeling like you'll never feel better, like things will never be the same. And honestly they never will be the same. There will always be things that area really hard, things that your dad won't be there for that you will really wish he was, and stuff like that, but it definitely gets better. It takes a long time, like multiple months, but it will happen. The hole in your heart will never completely heal, I'm sure of that, but you sort of get used to it. Eventually you learn to accept it because there is nothing you can do to change it, and you just try to live your life to the fullest extent that you can, because you know that's what he would have wanted.

Its Chrissy again

[supakila]

I don't know if this reply was to me ( thank you :) Does it get better over time? 'cause I find that it's almost harder. I don't know if this is hard for you to talk about. I feel like I'm just gonna learn to find what normal will be for me.)
But I'm going to answer anyway...
For me personally somethings get better with time but honestly I've come to learn that as time passes I miss her more and it hurts more. Time goes by so fast and you just want it to slow down because it just hurts. You will learn on your own what is normal and that is good. Everyone is different but I am always here whenever you need me. AND I MEAN ANYTIME.
Call me when you are not busy! I love you Sonia, a lot a lot.