I've been meaning to ask you
I guess I couldn't sleep last night after I got off the phone.
There was something way different, a rare thing that barely ever happens. I felt kinda... secure for a while. Like I knew my place, you know?
I wanted to call back when everything had settled and everyone was fast asleep, but I knew I'd feel bad for waking her up. I miss her, actually. Funny, right? Someone who helped put you on the verge of suicide and you miss her way too damn much. It's weird too, when you think about it.
I never met her, ever. I wish I did though, then I could die because... seeing her IS on the top of my list of things to do before i die. I tell her everything, and not once did I ever get to hug her or anything. It's no fair. At least whatshisname can, you have no idea how jealous of him I am. Someday I'm hoping I'll have my chance, i think after so long i deserve something too, you know?
I admit, of course it's love.
I want to deny it though, because I know that even if the greatest girl comes by, she'll still be at the back of my mind, waiting.
So yeah..
I got off the phone at 1:45 AM.
I didn't fall asleep til 4 because I felt like she was still there. There's so much I need to say, to do, to confess, before I finally go.
If you read this, call me..?
There was something way different, a rare thing that barely ever happens. I felt kinda... secure for a while. Like I knew my place, you know?
I wanted to call back when everything had settled and everyone was fast asleep, but I knew I'd feel bad for waking her up. I miss her, actually. Funny, right? Someone who helped put you on the verge of suicide and you miss her way too damn much. It's weird too, when you think about it.
I never met her, ever. I wish I did though, then I could die because... seeing her IS on the top of my list of things to do before i die. I tell her everything, and not once did I ever get to hug her or anything. It's no fair. At least whatshisname can, you have no idea how jealous of him I am. Someday I'm hoping I'll have my chance, i think after so long i deserve something too, you know?
I admit, of course it's love.
I want to deny it though, because I know that even if the greatest girl comes by, she'll still be at the back of my mind, waiting.
So yeah..
I got off the phone at 1:45 AM.
I didn't fall asleep til 4 because I felt like she was still there. There's so much I need to say, to do, to confess, before I finally go.
If you read this, call me..?