how much more can everyone take?
I shouldn't even be here, not with a paper tml.
I know if i don't do well, i shouldn't blame others or give excuses but all this has taken a toll on me.
It's been 2 years of chaos at home.
Their ages add up to over a hundred but they're acting more and more like kids.
The things that they argue about can be so trivial and juvenile.
My sis and i have tried to talk to them and meditate between them so often but within one or two days, the cycle repeats again.
It has gotten to a point where they only seem to care about their own presence in the family.
What about us? We've a life too and we can't keep on giving. It's just unhealthy.
What's worse is that all this help doesn't make my mom grateful. She snaps at me all the time and uses my siblings and I as an excuse to attack my dad.
I know my dad did smthg wrong and i can't imagine the pain that my mom has went through.
However now my dad is doing everything he can but my mom has some issues of her own. She just can't get over the
mistake that my dad made and my dad doesn't know what to do, so much so that you can tell he's frustated about it all the time.
He lost alot of weight too.
Both of them have been having suicidal thoughts which rly leads to nowhere.
Suicide is just the easy way out.
You leave the rest behind to suffer and i think that's really unfair.
Now i just can't wait for my exams to be over.
I need to get out of my hse to breathe,
need to get my mom some medical and emotional help and spend more time w them (facing the quarrels, which is really what i dread but have to face up to in order to help them).
I don't know when i'll snap though, feels like i'm threading on a thin rope here.