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so i start school on monday. i'm really excited. i also start my new job sometime next week. i am also very excited abou that, i can start making some money again and stop mooching off of my grandma finally.
lately things have been a bit rough with all of my friends. i dont know what to do anymore so all i can do is be a friend and hope that i get the same respect back. *crossing fingers*
i think things are okay now though. well at least they seem that way. i hope things arent just pretend for now.
well my family life is a little bit better, or at least i think so. i went to family dinner about a week ago and for those of you who dont know my situation, lets just say i havnt talked to my family in almost a year because they are on drugs and i cant stand to see my family on drugs... anywho.. i went to family dinner to try and sort shit out with them.. i didnt really say much to anyone but when i left i told them that if they ever want to talk about shit they can call me or something and im totally open for that... well now my birthday is comming up and i asked to have a family dinner again, thinking this would be a good ice breaker.. hell no.. my aunt and my uncle dont want to come to my birthday dinner because they dont want to face me.. they know that i hate what they have done and they are ashamed of themselves, but all i wanted was to have a nice family dinner and now they arent going to even come.. fuck that.. i made the first move by comming to dinner in the first place and telling them its cool to talk to me on "their time"... and no i invite them to my b-day and they dont want to.. fuck that.. if they dont end up comming im going to be so livid. im going to go back so square one.. not talking to them at all. its pretty tough growing up really fast and not having any family to back you up or to be there for you... and now it seems as if my friends are all getting way too deep into shit that they dont need to be getting into.. oh well im done bitching
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way way
lately things have been a bit rough with all of my friends. i dont know what to do anymore so all i can do is be a friend and hope that i get the same respect back. *crossing fingers*
i think things are okay now though. well at least they seem that way. i hope things arent just pretend for now.
well my family life is a little bit better, or at least i think so. i went to family dinner about a week ago and for those of you who dont know my situation, lets just say i havnt talked to my family in almost a year because they are on drugs and i cant stand to see my family on drugs... anywho.. i went to family dinner to try and sort shit out with them.. i didnt really say much to anyone but when i left i told them that if they ever want to talk about shit they can call me or something and im totally open for that... well now my birthday is comming up and i asked to have a family dinner again, thinking this would be a good ice breaker.. hell no.. my aunt and my uncle dont want to come to my birthday dinner because they dont want to face me.. they know that i hate what they have done and they are ashamed of themselves, but all i wanted was to have a nice family dinner and now they arent going to even come.. fuck that.. i made the first move by comming to dinner in the first place and telling them its cool to talk to me on "their time"... and no i invite them to my b-day and they dont want to.. fuck that.. if they dont end up comming im going to be so livid. im going to go back so square one.. not talking to them at all. its pretty tough growing up really fast and not having any family to back you up or to be there for you... and now it seems as if my friends are all getting way too deep into shit that they dont need to be getting into.. oh well im done bitching
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way way