i miss the relationship jessi and i had.

[somthing_hip]

how could i not?
i miss knowing someone so well and them knowing me so well, there was no reason to be embarrassed by my actions.
there is noone here i could be as close to. other than eric and few guys that eric thinks i dig, i get along with few people.
i miss her still.
but i know shes a completely different person now.
because i am in in no way the same person i was.
i dont know. i really dont think about home as much as i used to, but i still refer to that place as home.
i try not to hold on to the past as much as i used to, becuase honestly it wasnt all that great.
my memory just shows all the beauty it was rather than all the shit too.
i want to go back sometime. by myself. get a motel room. and just walk around all thoes familiar places and familiar faces.

on another note.

anyone listen to brainiac? or the liars?
its so god damn good.
ive heard people say the blood brothers are copying them (brainiac).
but blood brothers dont have shit on them.

as far as probation goes, its almost up.
 the results for the accutest came back clean.
found a four leaf clover.
so i have a test on monday then another in two weeks.
and im done.