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[somnolentpoet]

Why is it that people feel like they can just blow me off?

Why is it that when I get mad about it, they always act as if I'm to blame because I got mad?

Fuck.

The worst part is that I know that I'll feel bad later if I do anything with my anger.

I need to meet people who will value my friendship and actually keep their word when they plan something with me.

This isn't directed at all my friends. You will know if this post applies to you or not.

It's so sad that even when I know someone has blown me off, I still hold on to every shred of hope that they will call. It's fucking pathetic.

But not as pathetic as the fact that I will cave and forgive anyone who does this to me if they say they are sorry. I know that if I don't, they will just stay mad at me for being angry, and then I lose that friend.

And I really can't afford to lose the few people I consider good friends.

Even as I'm typing this, I really don't want to post it, out of fear that it will make certain people pissed with me.

I'm such a fucking spineless bitch.

Fucking shoot me.