So yeah.

[sommiegrrrl]

Sometimes life feels totally out of control.  That's happening right now.  Being bipolar is an adventure.

Here's the rundown:

1. I've kinda lost a best friend of 14 years over me ignoring an email.  Yes, there's more to that.  The email was the straw that broke the camel's back.
2. My marriage is in trouble.  3 weeks ago Brian laid it all out.  He has been bitter about things years, but just decided to tell me this year.
3. My depression has gotten worse.  I've now wanted to kill myself multiple times.  I would NEVER follow through with it.  I see my shrink this month, so my medication will be adjusted.
4. I feel like I'm sucking hard at my job.

There it is.  I'll elaborate more later.