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hmm its nine something on a wednesday night... i should be at practice... oh yeah my mom is continuing to be a total bitch and said that as a "punishment" for being a "rude, ungrateful, spoiled brat" among other things i cant go to practice. oh and i need to realize that the world doesnt revolve around me and people dont give a shit about me half as much as i would like to think they do. why does she always sound like she is talking about herself!!! ugh im so frusturated. this is back to the beginning of last year (julie and forrest u know what i mean) and i thought all that money she spent on counseling was supposed to help her control her aggression towards me! i cant control my flippin genes and i definitely cant change who i am so i guess shes just going to have to figure out a way to deal with her issues. ive seriously been trying! i swear. ive been trying to act more like calvin around her because he reminds her of my uncle who she actually likes. i dont really know what to do anymore though, this situation is beyond me. maybe next time ill offer to go to counseling with her so she can work this out to my face instead of letting me find files of letters on the computer!
hmm anyways life hasnt been all bad lately tho. i got my SAT scores back and i did really well so college options are looking good at the moment. my boppa decided that since i outscored everyone in my family i should be able to go to the college of my choice so hes taking me to visit all these colleges over the next few weeks. which also means that i get to spend some time with him! ive missed my grandparents. oh and there's that old pattern of my boppa "taking me under his wing" and my mom completely flipping out. i just noticed that... interesting.
ive been having so much fun in all my classes lately too. thats suprising cuz i hate my classes this year. which is adding to my frustration. i still dont like physics but everything else is a whole lot better. oh and i hate ms jones but who wouldve thought that id find psychology interesting and fortunately dillon, glen, michelle and i can all sit in our dark back corner and take comfort in our shared hatred of ms jones.
also i really like talking to britney, ashley and mary in govt cuz they are all long time friends that i havent been in touch with lately. ive been hanging out with the same people sooooo much.
oh and i ate lunch with sasha, ashley and mike today. sasha and i had an interesting conversation about our views on well relationships i guess u could say. she was all wow you make me see it completely differently- i dont know if thats good or not but its interesting. and i understand her better now. shes such an amazing person i wish she could see that in herself!
oh and one last story about my mom- just cuz im feeling better from all this venting. so my brother loses his phone, my mom screws up her sim card and erica spills orange juice all over my phone. now no one in my family has cell phones. so my mom goes off and orders herself a brand new $200+ camera phone with all the accessories and gives my brother her old phone. then to top it all off she takes my sim card. so now i have two broken phones and no sim card while everyone else has upgraded phones!! wtf then my mom says well i cant afford to spend any more money on phones right now so if u want a new phone u need to take care of that yourself. umm then let me get a fucking job!!!!!! why does this woman enjoy making my life difficult! (shhh! its a rhetorical question!) well im off to drown my miseries in candy and mindless television.
hmm anyways life hasnt been all bad lately tho. i got my SAT scores back and i did really well so college options are looking good at the moment. my boppa decided that since i outscored everyone in my family i should be able to go to the college of my choice so hes taking me to visit all these colleges over the next few weeks. which also means that i get to spend some time with him! ive missed my grandparents. oh and there's that old pattern of my boppa "taking me under his wing" and my mom completely flipping out. i just noticed that... interesting.
ive been having so much fun in all my classes lately too. thats suprising cuz i hate my classes this year. which is adding to my frustration. i still dont like physics but everything else is a whole lot better. oh and i hate ms jones but who wouldve thought that id find psychology interesting and fortunately dillon, glen, michelle and i can all sit in our dark back corner and take comfort in our shared hatred of ms jones.
also i really like talking to britney, ashley and mary in govt cuz they are all long time friends that i havent been in touch with lately. ive been hanging out with the same people sooooo much.
oh and i ate lunch with sasha, ashley and mike today. sasha and i had an interesting conversation about our views on well relationships i guess u could say. she was all wow you make me see it completely differently- i dont know if thats good or not but its interesting. and i understand her better now. shes such an amazing person i wish she could see that in herself!
oh and one last story about my mom- just cuz im feeling better from all this venting. so my brother loses his phone, my mom screws up her sim card and erica spills orange juice all over my phone. now no one in my family has cell phones. so my mom goes off and orders herself a brand new $200+ camera phone with all the accessories and gives my brother her old phone. then to top it all off she takes my sim card. so now i have two broken phones and no sim card while everyone else has upgraded phones!! wtf then my mom says well i cant afford to spend any more money on phones right now so if u want a new phone u need to take care of that yourself. umm then let me get a fucking job!!!!!! why does this woman enjoy making my life difficult! (shhh! its a rhetorical question!) well im off to drown my miseries in candy and mindless television.