concomitant
i've had that word in my head for about a week. i just like the way it sounds. but it's kind of funny how stuff like that can seem clearly and easily applicable, as it does now. like it's some magical coincidence... "retrojection."
yesterday i went to the library and by chance ran across the diary of anais nin. i love it. it's one of those books that i fell in love with as soon as i opened it, and that i think about when i'm away from it (wtf grammar). i don't do a whole lot of reading, and abandoning books is easy for me. so i like being excited about a book. why, i abandoned sexing the cherry just this past week, and i feel great about it.
anyway, i identify closely with one of the people in anais nin's diary, and it gives me a confusing mix of pride and shame -- i admire the character's strength/hardness one minute, and the next she seems like your typical seeker of affection/attention whore. like me. haha.
so is it worse to be unaware of a "character flaw", or to be aware of it and decide not to try to change it?
also, i think i really understand anais's intense compassion for other people, and how it's sometimes confusing or difficult to explain. i do have that, even though i act like i don't like people. well, i actually often don't, on a surface level. but i still love them.*
why is this so candid.
speaking of which, i got myself into trouble again with my livejournal. always, haha. nothing major, just got called out today and given shit for something i wrote. seth, you know i think you're a darling.
i made something like $37 at work today. considering my sales were only $144 (seriously jesus christ this is the least i've had in sales since i started there), i guess that's ok. especially since because no one was there, we listened to funk really loudly and danced and sang. it was a fun day.
*if you're laughing, shut up.
yesterday i went to the library and by chance ran across the diary of anais nin. i love it. it's one of those books that i fell in love with as soon as i opened it, and that i think about when i'm away from it (wtf grammar). i don't do a whole lot of reading, and abandoning books is easy for me. so i like being excited about a book. why, i abandoned sexing the cherry just this past week, and i feel great about it.
anyway, i identify closely with one of the people in anais nin's diary, and it gives me a confusing mix of pride and shame -- i admire the character's strength/hardness one minute, and the next she seems like your typical seeker of affection/attention whore. like me. haha.
so is it worse to be unaware of a "character flaw", or to be aware of it and decide not to try to change it?
also, i think i really understand anais's intense compassion for other people, and how it's sometimes confusing or difficult to explain. i do have that, even though i act like i don't like people. well, i actually often don't, on a surface level. but i still love them.*
why is this so candid.
speaking of which, i got myself into trouble again with my livejournal. always, haha. nothing major, just got called out today and given shit for something i wrote. seth, you know i think you're a darling.
i made something like $37 at work today. considering my sales were only $144 (seriously jesus christ this is the least i've had in sales since i started there), i guess that's ok. especially since because no one was there, we listened to funk really loudly and danced and sang. it was a fun day.
*if you're laughing, shut up.