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When Ian acts 'small' (aka: young), it drives me up a fucking wall. Not in a negative way, either.
And in this, people probably question if our relationship switches for when he does this. If suddenly I'm the dominant one and he's the submissive.
I think all person would have to do is see how he takes my little blue blanket and carries it about as if it were his own; how he forces me to have to be around that creepy stuffed animal I got him; how he makes me get him food and chocolate and turn up the volume on the movie; how he bites the shit out of me because he chews on me even more when he's like this. How he pinches and pulls and doesn't listen to no.
And yet he acts like this innocent little thing while he's being a horrid monster half the time. This sweet, cruel little fucking wolfish puppy boy.
So no, we don't switch. I'm not dominant in the least. I'm nurturing, yes, and I'm a sexual top, but I'm a sexual top acting on what I'm told. I'm still serving him. I'm service fucking.
And I think that's all the more reason why it drives me absolutely insane. Because every cute or horrid little thing he does, he does it because he knows my reaction, not because he's naive to it.
The little beast.
And in this, people probably question if our relationship switches for when he does this. If suddenly I'm the dominant one and he's the submissive.
I think all person would have to do is see how he takes my little blue blanket and carries it about as if it were his own; how he forces me to have to be around that creepy stuffed animal I got him; how he makes me get him food and chocolate and turn up the volume on the movie; how he bites the shit out of me because he chews on me even more when he's like this. How he pinches and pulls and doesn't listen to no.
And yet he acts like this innocent little thing while he's being a horrid monster half the time. This sweet, cruel little fucking wolfish puppy boy.
So no, we don't switch. I'm not dominant in the least. I'm nurturing, yes, and I'm a sexual top, but I'm a sexual top acting on what I'm told. I'm still serving him. I'm service fucking.
And I think that's all the more reason why it drives me absolutely insane. Because every cute or horrid little thing he does, he does it because he knows my reaction, not because he's naive to it.
The little beast.