learning unlearning = follow your heart

[somewhitedog]

I've called my entire recovery process learning to unlearn. It's more than apt. This is another part of it.

I'm learning to unlearn

that set amounts of time for a certain emotion to be ok to talk about do not exist

that whatever I'm feeling is valid unless it's making me feel negative emotions, no matter how much they confuse me

that even if the logical choice makes me feel negative, it's the wrong choice

that 'follow your heart' is only frowned upon because people don't actually do that and get negative reactions. when it's a negative reaction they're usually following their dick or the mindset they were trained to think with

that usually (I say usually because Ian's always gotten me nail on the head everytime, so it needs noting) no one knows what's best for you better than you. sometimes you're just shitty at noticing it right away

that love in essence is undefinable. attempting to do so does a shit job of doing so and doesn't cover the full spectrum

that I need to stop thinking so hard and just do what I'm doing in this journal entry, as hard as that is.