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i've been out here for a week and so far it's awesome, hard, wonderful, lonely, peaceful, necessary, and exhausting. i'm walking everywhere, getting a feel for the place, constructing my mental map, taking it all in.
right now there's only me. not that i don't go to work and babysit and talk to other people, but not having a social life to speak of yet, and having all this free time and free energy... i'm just pouring it into taking care of myself. i'm eating well, sleeping a ton, reading, taking hot baths, and going for wonderfully long and aimless walks. sometimes it's lonely and lame, but only for passing moments.
and continuing my summer love affair with california in the winter/spring is mind-blowing. there are flowers blooming everywhere. it's so green and alive. the air is intoxicating. i feel like i stepped out of winter into my version of instant spring. i'm so enchanted. i keep trying to put this in my new england framework for seasons and i have to let that go.
so yeah, i guess i'm just saying that this is hard and good and i'm happy i'm here doing it.
right now there's only me. not that i don't go to work and babysit and talk to other people, but not having a social life to speak of yet, and having all this free time and free energy... i'm just pouring it into taking care of myself. i'm eating well, sleeping a ton, reading, taking hot baths, and going for wonderfully long and aimless walks. sometimes it's lonely and lame, but only for passing moments.
and continuing my summer love affair with california in the winter/spring is mind-blowing. there are flowers blooming everywhere. it's so green and alive. the air is intoxicating. i feel like i stepped out of winter into my version of instant spring. i'm so enchanted. i keep trying to put this in my new england framework for seasons and i have to let that go.
so yeah, i guess i'm just saying that this is hard and good and i'm happy i'm here doing it.