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MEMORY
sometimes all you have
to hold onto is a memory
something that's just there
sitting in the back of your mind
taunting you making you insane
tears can oly subside them
your memory can never leave
as many time as you try
your body and mind can't take it any more
some times all you have
is a memory
isn't it true though all you have is a memory weather a good one or bad one you still cry over it because it's not there anymore an you can't make any more happy or sad memories with them or you can't touch thier face or hear thier voice or see the light reflect off thier hair or that twinkle in thier eye when they see you or that warm and loving embrace that happens when you say hi... or those butter flies that form in you stomache and feel that they might fly out of our mouth when you talk.... that feeling you get when they touch your leg or touch you arm weather by accendent or on purpose... when every time the phone rings you hope and dreed that they call... when you know you can tell them that they annoy you and they just laugh it off and kiss you and it makes everything okay... the way that on kiss can hold so much emotion and passion.... the way that when they touch you or kiss you in the right spot you automatically melting and you don't want to be put back together... the way that when you haven't heard thier vioce in an hour make you insane or that they make you mad but then five seconds later they make you laugh histeraclly or maybe it's when you tell them your sorry and you have to tell them that heart wrenching news..... and then they laugh and tell you it's okay, that makes tears come to your eyes because you know that they love you enough to forgive you and that you deeply know that it all worth it... that you don't want anyone eles and you realize that you have that ONE special person in you life and you never want to let them go...that you can't imagin your life without them by your side and when you do you can only picture yourself with cats and in a small apartment overlooking some gay city and that when you really realize that you have them regardless you can't seem not to smile every minute of every day and when you can't smile any more you just want to paint a smile on because that's what you want to do and all you can talk about is them and how much they make you feel special and how much they make you feel loved and when they say those words i love you, you just want to piss on the floor because your dreams are coming true and you know that dispite everything your goig to have them in your life for ever... but then you have to face reality, and realize that they're not there anymore and that makes your eyes moist and wet and sed and makes your whole body turn limp, and makes your insides churn with every snake and reptile that's vile and you'd rather swallow a million spiders than be with out them.... but when reality sets in you still can only thin of them and you dwell on the past because that's what you do and all you want to do is go to where ever they are and tell them that you can't live without them and that they make you feel like a whole person but you can't because your too afraid that they've already found some one new and you are crushed and that you realize that you cry almost every night because the love of your life has left so you try to stay up as long as you can cuz everytime you go to sleep you dream about them and you can't do that you cna't think about them because it hurts to damn much but you do and you sit in your bathroom on the floor door lock crying your eyes out and you can't stop because once you've started you can't stop...
i guess memories are weird
allee
sometimes all you have
to hold onto is a memory
something that's just there
sitting in the back of your mind
taunting you making you insane
tears can oly subside them
your memory can never leave
as many time as you try
your body and mind can't take it any more
some times all you have
is a memory
isn't it true though all you have is a memory weather a good one or bad one you still cry over it because it's not there anymore an you can't make any more happy or sad memories with them or you can't touch thier face or hear thier voice or see the light reflect off thier hair or that twinkle in thier eye when they see you or that warm and loving embrace that happens when you say hi... or those butter flies that form in you stomache and feel that they might fly out of our mouth when you talk.... that feeling you get when they touch your leg or touch you arm weather by accendent or on purpose... when every time the phone rings you hope and dreed that they call... when you know you can tell them that they annoy you and they just laugh it off and kiss you and it makes everything okay... the way that on kiss can hold so much emotion and passion.... the way that when they touch you or kiss you in the right spot you automatically melting and you don't want to be put back together... the way that when you haven't heard thier vioce in an hour make you insane or that they make you mad but then five seconds later they make you laugh histeraclly or maybe it's when you tell them your sorry and you have to tell them that heart wrenching news..... and then they laugh and tell you it's okay, that makes tears come to your eyes because you know that they love you enough to forgive you and that you deeply know that it all worth it... that you don't want anyone eles and you realize that you have that ONE special person in you life and you never want to let them go...that you can't imagin your life without them by your side and when you do you can only picture yourself with cats and in a small apartment overlooking some gay city and that when you really realize that you have them regardless you can't seem not to smile every minute of every day and when you can't smile any more you just want to paint a smile on because that's what you want to do and all you can talk about is them and how much they make you feel special and how much they make you feel loved and when they say those words i love you, you just want to piss on the floor because your dreams are coming true and you know that dispite everything your goig to have them in your life for ever... but then you have to face reality, and realize that they're not there anymore and that makes your eyes moist and wet and sed and makes your whole body turn limp, and makes your insides churn with every snake and reptile that's vile and you'd rather swallow a million spiders than be with out them.... but when reality sets in you still can only thin of them and you dwell on the past because that's what you do and all you want to do is go to where ever they are and tell them that you can't live without them and that they make you feel like a whole person but you can't because your too afraid that they've already found some one new and you are crushed and that you realize that you cry almost every night because the love of your life has left so you try to stay up as long as you can cuz everytime you go to sleep you dream about them and you can't do that you cna't think about them because it hurts to damn much but you do and you sit in your bathroom on the floor door lock crying your eyes out and you can't stop because once you've started you can't stop...
i guess memories are weird
allee