Listening
When Lael spoke to his parents about how they would feel if he moved in with me, his mother said "Badly." His father and mother both suggested getting a marriage certificate if we were really serious enough about our relationship to move in together.
And at the end of every conversation where Lael isn't sure which path is the right path, his parents tell him to "pray on it."
I've always thought that praying about the everyday was strange. Whoever is in charge of our lives and fate is a little too busy to listen to prayers about whether or not we should move in together or a promotion I want, aren't they? Now I kind of think that "praying on it" simply means to open yourself up to what is going to happen. It's more of an acceptance tool, I think. Lael told me he has been praying that God show the path we are supposed to take to him. That if we aren't supposed to move in together at this time please let something else come up which is more feasible for us. (Because neither one of us is dying to move in together, it's just cheaper and easier since we practically live together now).
When he told mem I thought "That's sweet but what else is going to come up?! We should be spurred to action to fix the situation we are in, not sitting around waiting to be told what to do by someone who is probably too busy to pay attention to us."
Then yesterday, after my Clearwater Parks and Recreation interview I thought of something. Internships sometimes turn into jobs. My two interviewers were past interns and he said that 7 or 8 people have been hired through the internship program with even more being given offers. What if all of this is happening because I'm supposed to find a job in my field and it isn't close to downtown Saint Petersburg? Everyone knows I HATE a commute. I love living here, in this condo, but I've been so stubborn that I haven't bothered to think about all of my other options.
So now I'm looking for jobs in all cities. I told Lael that if I find a job doing what I want to do in another city then I'm probably going to move there, and he can follow when he graduates. If we are meant to be, then we will be. You know? There is a Catering Manager position open at the Loews in New Orleans. But if it's Clearwater - well then that's easy. Because his job is in tampa and he doesn't really mind the commute AND our friend Josh just found a REALLY CHEAP and pretty nice apartment right down the street from my interview. $550/month for one bed one bath with a nice large living space and a deck. $750/month for the one above him which is 2 bedrooms 2.5 baths and a screened in porch and vaulted ceilings. AND they know the girl who works in the leasing office... which leads to one month free and some other great perk. Well, first I have to get the internship. **CROSS YOUR FINGERS**
Maybe I'm just supposed to be accepting of the opportunities I may receive in the next few months. Do you know how hard that is for me to do? Maybe it's time to sit down and meditate to the Goddess. :)
Anyways, I've had 4 days off in a row by some random chance drawing and have accomplished next to nothing. And last night I was freaking out about all of the STUFF I have lying around. So I'm going to get to work on accomplishing things today. I think.... cleaning, heading out to donate to the thrift stores, sending some leftover Christmas presents out, and throwing a few things away. Also laundry. Good idea Jessica.
And at the end of every conversation where Lael isn't sure which path is the right path, his parents tell him to "pray on it."
I've always thought that praying about the everyday was strange. Whoever is in charge of our lives and fate is a little too busy to listen to prayers about whether or not we should move in together or a promotion I want, aren't they? Now I kind of think that "praying on it" simply means to open yourself up to what is going to happen. It's more of an acceptance tool, I think. Lael told me he has been praying that God show the path we are supposed to take to him. That if we aren't supposed to move in together at this time please let something else come up which is more feasible for us. (Because neither one of us is dying to move in together, it's just cheaper and easier since we practically live together now).
When he told mem I thought "That's sweet but what else is going to come up?! We should be spurred to action to fix the situation we are in, not sitting around waiting to be told what to do by someone who is probably too busy to pay attention to us."
Then yesterday, after my Clearwater Parks and Recreation interview I thought of something. Internships sometimes turn into jobs. My two interviewers were past interns and he said that 7 or 8 people have been hired through the internship program with even more being given offers. What if all of this is happening because I'm supposed to find a job in my field and it isn't close to downtown Saint Petersburg? Everyone knows I HATE a commute. I love living here, in this condo, but I've been so stubborn that I haven't bothered to think about all of my other options.
So now I'm looking for jobs in all cities. I told Lael that if I find a job doing what I want to do in another city then I'm probably going to move there, and he can follow when he graduates. If we are meant to be, then we will be. You know? There is a Catering Manager position open at the Loews in New Orleans. But if it's Clearwater - well then that's easy. Because his job is in tampa and he doesn't really mind the commute AND our friend Josh just found a REALLY CHEAP and pretty nice apartment right down the street from my interview. $550/month for one bed one bath with a nice large living space and a deck. $750/month for the one above him which is 2 bedrooms 2.5 baths and a screened in porch and vaulted ceilings. AND they know the girl who works in the leasing office... which leads to one month free and some other great perk. Well, first I have to get the internship. **CROSS YOUR FINGERS**
Maybe I'm just supposed to be accepting of the opportunities I may receive in the next few months. Do you know how hard that is for me to do? Maybe it's time to sit down and meditate to the Goddess. :)
Anyways, I've had 4 days off in a row by some random chance drawing and have accomplished next to nothing. And last night I was freaking out about all of the STUFF I have lying around. So I'm going to get to work on accomplishing things today. I think.... cleaning, heading out to donate to the thrift stores, sending some leftover Christmas presents out, and throwing a few things away. Also laundry. Good idea Jessica.