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My head and back and neck are k i l l i n g me. It has to be a combination of sleeping on the couch, my wisdom teeth deciding to start growing again (the suckers are coming out soon! D:<), and the fact that my computer is set up on the floor in my little brother's room. I'm on my mom's computer now, just because it's a lot less painful.
@_@ Since I've been sleeping on the couch, I noticed I do this thing where I slide upward and the pillow goes with me, and at some point I slide back down and the pillow stays, so I'll wake up with my neck at a WEIRD angle, like, I'll be on my back and the top of my head is pressed against the bottom of the pillow, which is sitting upright, so like, my head is leaning backward really far and basically have my head resting against my back. It's a nearly impossible angle, I swear, but I keep doing it. o_o
Trying not to let my family stress me out. No one can get ten minutes of peace when they live here. -_-! I mean, I love my family, I really do, but they nitpick soooo much. But yesterday, I finally felt like crying because of stuff my stepdad was doing, and instead I just got up and took my brother's bike and left. I felt so much better. XD I rode for 30 minutes without stopping but ended up coming back around to the park and getting on the swings for awhile. I even "forgot" my cell phone. >:3
Days I'm counting down to:
When my sister starts house-sitting for Tammie (there's an enormous swimming pool with my name on it :3!!)
When Rosie gets here (21st or 22nd of July)
MTV Family Values Tour (August 20th in Sacramento)
SCHOOL (already, yes ;.; ) (starts September 7th)
Also, I really am letting my hair grow out. I'm keeping it black, but I got tired of paying to have my hair cut! Besides, one day if I want it short again I can do that easily.
In the psychologist department: I actually just stopped going, weeks ago. She never called me or anything. I skipped an appointment that I had and then didn't go anymore. I don't feel like she was helping me at all.
I know this sounds egotistical, but a lot of my problem is everyone else. I mean, I know that some of it is me and I'm not completely "normal", but there's just something about... society in general that makes me feel completely hopeless. I'm tired of feeling like I'm going nowhere, I'm tired of feeling like I NEED to go anywhere, everything's gotten so fast, I can at least try to slow it down for myself. But, you know, everyone around you demands that you go at their pace and you never get to stop to look at anything, you just go go go, get things done, aghh @_@ I know there are things I have to do, and I do them, but the most important thing to me is to enjoy everything and the people around me, not to get out there and make money and "network" as they call it.
Gotta find my priorities.
@_@ Since I've been sleeping on the couch, I noticed I do this thing where I slide upward and the pillow goes with me, and at some point I slide back down and the pillow stays, so I'll wake up with my neck at a WEIRD angle, like, I'll be on my back and the top of my head is pressed against the bottom of the pillow, which is sitting upright, so like, my head is leaning backward really far and basically have my head resting against my back. It's a nearly impossible angle, I swear, but I keep doing it. o_o
Trying not to let my family stress me out. No one can get ten minutes of peace when they live here. -_-! I mean, I love my family, I really do, but they nitpick soooo much. But yesterday, I finally felt like crying because of stuff my stepdad was doing, and instead I just got up and took my brother's bike and left. I felt so much better. XD I rode for 30 minutes without stopping but ended up coming back around to the park and getting on the swings for awhile. I even "forgot" my cell phone. >:3
Days I'm counting down to:
When my sister starts house-sitting for Tammie (there's an enormous swimming pool with my name on it :3!!)
When Rosie gets here (21st or 22nd of July)
MTV Family Values Tour (August 20th in Sacramento)
SCHOOL (already, yes ;.; ) (starts September 7th)
Also, I really am letting my hair grow out. I'm keeping it black, but I got tired of paying to have my hair cut! Besides, one day if I want it short again I can do that easily.
In the psychologist department: I actually just stopped going, weeks ago. She never called me or anything. I skipped an appointment that I had and then didn't go anymore. I don't feel like she was helping me at all.
I know this sounds egotistical, but a lot of my problem is everyone else. I mean, I know that some of it is me and I'm not completely "normal", but there's just something about... society in general that makes me feel completely hopeless. I'm tired of feeling like I'm going nowhere, I'm tired of feeling like I NEED to go anywhere, everything's gotten so fast, I can at least try to slow it down for myself. But, you know, everyone around you demands that you go at their pace and you never get to stop to look at anything, you just go go go, get things done, aghh @_@ I know there are things I have to do, and I do them, but the most important thing to me is to enjoy everything and the people around me, not to get out there and make money and "network" as they call it.
Gotta find my priorities.