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recently realized that my self-esteem isn't half as high as i thought it was, meaning:
i like myself, but i doubt that other people could. or do. obsessobsessobsess. grow up and get out.
two days ago tony dropped me off at my house earlier than i could have shown up so i went awalkin' and ran into him again. went walking again, it was raining and i was freezing and i felt like the lonliest soul in the whole wide world. explored langhorne for hours, practiced playing nochalant as i passed police cars at 3 in the morning.
it's too late for me everywhere. i've fucked up my schooling to the point where it's truly impossible for me to get into anywhere other than bucks.
i've fucked up my life.
i like myself, but i doubt that other people could. or do. obsessobsessobsess. grow up and get out.
two days ago tony dropped me off at my house earlier than i could have shown up so i went awalkin' and ran into him again. went walking again, it was raining and i was freezing and i felt like the lonliest soul in the whole wide world. explored langhorne for hours, practiced playing nochalant as i passed police cars at 3 in the morning.
it's too late for me everywhere. i've fucked up my schooling to the point where it's truly impossible for me to get into anywhere other than bucks.
i've fucked up my life.