My luck couldn't get any worse
Entry # 00135
I’m beginning to think that my luck canNOT get ANY worse than how it is now…
First last night, someone tells me how my actions don’t mean anything to me…which made me feel like 1. A dirty fucking hoe shit bag slut fuck cunt face, and 2. Shit, and this is the first time I’ve really felt bad for something ever since I got into that argument with Cameron about how he shouldn’t be all over girls…
2nd…today, My mom and I go searching for my new car I was supposed to get…We looked around, and my mom was in a good mood…Then…I get outta the car, and my fucking cell phone comes outta my pocket and right into the FUCKING SEWER…So…You know, my mom starts bitching at me about EVERYTHING, and how everything I do is wrong…so yeah, I just sat there crying while she talked her shit…But oh…When we’re around people, she puts on that smile and speaks her words ever so smoothly; she could never be a mean person anyways, right? I mean, look how cute…But away from society, she puts on her true face which is her shaking her head in disgust that everything I do is wrong and that I shouldn’t have anything cause all I’ll ever do is break it, lose it, do something terribly wrong with it.
My true highlight of the day was getting a hug from Cam…When’s the last time I actually had an actual conversation with him?…Other than the 2 seconds I saw him today, the last time I saw him was last Sunday…I hate this…Fucking feelings just rushing back to me…I just wish something, anything, could go right for once…
So, I have no cell phone, no car, no money…No one other then Kevin to tell me something so amazing that could cheer me up in such a short amount of time…
Can someone tell me what exactly it is that I did wrong to deserve any of this???
I’m beginning to think that my luck canNOT get ANY worse than how it is now…
First last night, someone tells me how my actions don’t mean anything to me…which made me feel like 1. A dirty fucking hoe shit bag slut fuck cunt face, and 2. Shit, and this is the first time I’ve really felt bad for something ever since I got into that argument with Cameron about how he shouldn’t be all over girls…
2nd…today, My mom and I go searching for my new car I was supposed to get…We looked around, and my mom was in a good mood…Then…I get outta the car, and my fucking cell phone comes outta my pocket and right into the FUCKING SEWER…So…You know, my mom starts bitching at me about EVERYTHING, and how everything I do is wrong…so yeah, I just sat there crying while she talked her shit…But oh…When we’re around people, she puts on that smile and speaks her words ever so smoothly; she could never be a mean person anyways, right? I mean, look how cute…But away from society, she puts on her true face which is her shaking her head in disgust that everything I do is wrong and that I shouldn’t have anything cause all I’ll ever do is break it, lose it, do something terribly wrong with it.
My true highlight of the day was getting a hug from Cam…When’s the last time I actually had an actual conversation with him?…Other than the 2 seconds I saw him today, the last time I saw him was last Sunday…I hate this…Fucking feelings just rushing back to me…I just wish something, anything, could go right for once…
So, I have no cell phone, no car, no money…No one other then Kevin to tell me something so amazing that could cheer me up in such a short amount of time…
Can someone tell me what exactly it is that I did wrong to deserve any of this???