happy?
I look at the lyrics to this song... and its just the perfect thing to describe the last 7 months of my life.
When I cry, I close my eyes
And every tear falls down inside
And I pray with all my might
That I will find my heart in someone's arms
When I cry, cry
When I cry, when I am sad
I think of every awful thing I ever did
When I cry, there is no love
No, there is nothing that can comfort me enough
When I cry
Cry, cry
The salt inside my body ruins
Everyone I come close to
My hands are barely holding up my head
Oh, I'm so tired of looking at my feet
And all the secrets that I keep
My heart is barely hangin' by a thread
Hangin' by a thread
Oh, look at me
At all I've done
I've lost so many things that I so dearly love
I lost my soul
I lost my pride
Oh, I lost any hope of having a good life
So I cry
Cry, cry
I miss you all
I wish I was
With you now
I wish I was
There are good days and bad days. I guess its that way for everyone, but I just get my hopes up that things are at last positively reshaping. One day to another I try to find something new and inspiring just to help me get by until I have a good day again. Its like, if I find something to distract me during my bad days, the good days will come faster. There seems to be so many times in life when things seem so impossible like everything is screwed up to the point where it will never be okay again. Iv'e given up on trying to make my parents happy when they remind me everyday about my flawless sister. Im lost... but thats life, right?
When I cry, I close my eyes
And every tear falls down inside
And I pray with all my might
That I will find my heart in someone's arms
When I cry, cry
When I cry, when I am sad
I think of every awful thing I ever did
When I cry, there is no love
No, there is nothing that can comfort me enough
When I cry
Cry, cry
The salt inside my body ruins
Everyone I come close to
My hands are barely holding up my head
Oh, I'm so tired of looking at my feet
And all the secrets that I keep
My heart is barely hangin' by a thread
Hangin' by a thread
Oh, look at me
At all I've done
I've lost so many things that I so dearly love
I lost my soul
I lost my pride
Oh, I lost any hope of having a good life
So I cry
Cry, cry
I miss you all
I wish I was
With you now
I wish I was
There are good days and bad days. I guess its that way for everyone, but I just get my hopes up that things are at last positively reshaping. One day to another I try to find something new and inspiring just to help me get by until I have a good day again. Its like, if I find something to distract me during my bad days, the good days will come faster. There seems to be so many times in life when things seem so impossible like everything is screwed up to the point where it will never be okay again. Iv'e given up on trying to make my parents happy when they remind me everyday about my flawless sister. Im lost... but thats life, right?