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Yeah, I'm at my dad's. It's really boring! He made me shovel like 4 houses that aren't even his..What is that? After that I went to Circuit City and picked up U2 - How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb and FeFe Dobson's self titled album.
I want to tell them I'm gay, but how? My dad and stepmom are uber-religious Bush supporters. Blah, it just sucks because they're always like "Yeah you loove girls." and earlier in the car my dad was talking about moving and he said "Yeah we'll probably do it after you graduate because then you'll be too busy chasing girls to visit anyway." So I was like, "Yeah how about that."
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Fuck, I told them. We were just kind of talking and i didnt know how to bring it up so I was like,"Yeah we don't have school on Friday but I have to go in and bake for GSA" and my stepmom said "What's that?" and I said "...Gay straight alliance" and they kind of got guiet, and I was like "Actually..there's something i've been wanting to tell you for a really long time...I'm gay"
And so she was like "How do you know?!" and I was just like.."It's just a part of me, and I was sick of lying to myself and pretending to be someone I'm not. I'm not necessarily going to close any doors, but this is how i feel"
They told me that they always saw me getting married, and having children and being happy with a woman. Then I got a lecture about the word of God and how I'm a sinner and that in the end, I'm going to hell, unless I lie to myself and pretend to be something I'm not, and ultimately die unhappy. "It's your choice, accept the word of God and have a life of eternity, or reject him and be happy."