The hoopla
So. There's a particular boy. We're good friends and get along quite well. He has had a crush on me for a long time- basically ever since he met me. He's has a girlfriend for a few months now, who is a girl he dated for 2 years in high school. Of course, I also have a boyfriend... but on to business. He just don't seem willing to give up his crush on me. I've told him that it's not going to feasibly happen between us- I like him, I really do, but we both have significant others and aren't willing to just drop people who we love and who love us to take a chance. Instead, we have just made out a few times and cuddled. I feel like it's pretty evidentially out there (between us) that we have chemistry and like each other. We're quite open about talking to each other about it, too. He is bitter that I've said I don't see me dating him, which just now I don't. He knows he doesn't either, but he doesn't want to say that. He doesn't want to drop his rather annoying girlfriend to take a shot with me. It's not a guarantee. We don't have years of history or a promise to get married in possible future. He has no reason to do any of that, and won't, yet resents the fact that I try to be honest. And it's only because he knows what he wants and what is realistic do not align. Every time we're around each other we want to be closer, we want to kiss. I don't know why. It's weird.
One of my best friends (our mutual friend, but she knows me better) can see it every time. She was the first to call his crush, first to call that we were going to make out. She can see the chemistry, and see that we work well together. But she also understands out relationship issues. It's just a touchy subject, and there's not much to do. There's not much I want to do about it at the moment anyway, because everything is going swimmingly. So swimmingly.
I can't even feel my doubts that much anymore. I can't think of much to wish for at 11:11. My reality sometimes resembles my dreams.
Everything is so good, I just don't want it all to turn to shit.
I'm in love, for the first time in my life. And it's crazy.
One of my best friends (our mutual friend, but she knows me better) can see it every time. She was the first to call his crush, first to call that we were going to make out. She can see the chemistry, and see that we work well together. But she also understands out relationship issues. It's just a touchy subject, and there's not much to do. There's not much I want to do about it at the moment anyway, because everything is going swimmingly. So swimmingly.
I can't even feel my doubts that much anymore. I can't think of much to wish for at 11:11. My reality sometimes resembles my dreams.
Everything is so good, I just don't want it all to turn to shit.
I'm in love, for the first time in my life. And it's crazy.