I don't feel right when you're gone away

[somethingsotrue]

I know I've only been away for like 4 days... but I hate this. I hate being so far from him and not knowing what he might be doing. As much as I conceptually trust him, it's so hard. He's around friends from corps, with whom he's done God knows what. It's so hard for me to trust him, especially when I feel like a little immature high school girlfriend. Why would be stay with me when he can have all these other girls, girls who he will actually be able to see over the summer? It's not like I don't want him to go out and have fun, because I do... I guess whatever happens, it'll work out. I guess. He's dropped me like it was nothing before, what's to stop him now? Just because he says he "loves" me? I don't know. I feel like it's only going to get harder for us. It's just hard now because there's a real possibility I won't see him until I go back to campus for school, and I miss him a lot already. It's stupid, I hate feeling like this. I suppose it's made better by my assumption that he feels the same way, but I don't want to jump to that conclusion.

In other news, I've been feeling really sick and light-headed. Not sure what that's about. There's no reason for it. Shit.