Total State of Confusion
Why do people have to suck so badly? My ex-boyfriend (let's call him "B")was at the basketball game that I was at tonight. I talked to him for a while, and he even gave me a hug. But why the Hell wouldn't he call me at all? I am terribly worried for him, because he got arrested (which he wants to work for the FBI...fat chance now), he's gotten drunk on many occasions (again...something he doesn't do), and now he wants to move out of his house. I'm sorry but he's really screwing up his life, and it just hurts me to see him. I could tell that when we were talking, that he still had that lovey-dovey look in his eye when he looked at me. I don't want him to do something stupid, but at the same time maybe he needs it to straighten him out. I think his parents are coming down on him and he's getting pissed, so he wants to move out. He doesn't make bad money (yea...at a friggin Car Wash), but if he wants to live by himself, he is gonna need more money. He isn't gonna afford it. I can see it now...he's gonna burn all the bridges between himself and his true friends and family, and when he realizes what the Hell he's doing, then it'll be too late. I still love him, but right now he's just being dumb. It's getting to the point that if he ever wants to get back together with me, that I don't know if I want to go back to that. If he did it once, he'll do it again. I'm not as stupid as he thinks I am. Oh well, my life just sucks really badly- I am starting to hate it!!! Oh well, it is his frickin loss, and I cant wait around anymore. I just gotta take things one day at a time, and they'll be ok....I guess