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I haven't updated in a long time. Almost 2 years. But I read everyone else's so I figured maybe I would give you something to read. Life is a busy parade and sometimes I feel as if I'm in the crowd, behind some enormous beast of a man and I can't see what's going on. Very rarely do I understand what is happening or why. But I take it as it comes. I have my lows, but I usually pull myself up quickly.
Sometimes I feel disconnected with the rest of the world, my old friends, my old way of life since I am now so consumed by school, work, boyfriend, etc. I miss it, in a nostalgic sort of way, although I know I wouldn't really want to change how things are now. I just wish I could go back and relive everything, not make so many mistakes, and appreciate all the fun moments, just a little bit more than I did.
As for now I like the way I see my life going. My new goal is to try to see everyone for the beauty that they have and not what they are lacking. I think in this way I can benefit people around me and get the most out of life. I hate only thinking about myself as everyone so easily does. After your whole life, it gets tiring and right about now I feel as if I am drained by constantly worrying about ME. I want to worry about YOU. And I am convinced this will be much more fulfilling.
I will be 20 in four days. I'm still trying to figure out what that means. I wish we didn't keep track of birthdays, then I wouldn't have to wonder when I am ever going to grow up. Nice catching up...
Sometimes I feel disconnected with the rest of the world, my old friends, my old way of life since I am now so consumed by school, work, boyfriend, etc. I miss it, in a nostalgic sort of way, although I know I wouldn't really want to change how things are now. I just wish I could go back and relive everything, not make so many mistakes, and appreciate all the fun moments, just a little bit more than I did.
As for now I like the way I see my life going. My new goal is to try to see everyone for the beauty that they have and not what they are lacking. I think in this way I can benefit people around me and get the most out of life. I hate only thinking about myself as everyone so easily does. After your whole life, it gets tiring and right about now I feel as if I am drained by constantly worrying about ME. I want to worry about YOU. And I am convinced this will be much more fulfilling.
I will be 20 in four days. I'm still trying to figure out what that means. I wish we didn't keep track of birthdays, then I wouldn't have to wonder when I am ever going to grow up. Nice catching up...