1 year
one year in london.
a strange year. things are good now but i thought they wouldn't be.
some kind of breakdown when we first got here. ocd, depression, anxiety, a feeling of constant doom, fear of doors and windows, fear of noises, inability to leave the house.
can't even remember now exactly why any of it was important.
we lost yoshimi at christmas.
and all of the rest of it meant nothing. checking the doors and the cooker didn't stop that from happening.
and i can’t write anything about that right now. still too hard, too sad.
but good things happened too.
we made a movie.
or, ross made the movie. i helped.
and now, the movie is being edited. it's spring again, things look nicer this time around. i like the river. i think i became a pseudo-city person after all but that's okay. but i feel bad that i only miss the forest when i remember to miss the forest.
we sold our car. and then decided to keep the shonky old porsche from the movie. it fell apart immediately. it's being fixed.
i'm working on book illustrations.
loki is ♡
i don't always wear shoes when i go outside.
a strange year. things are good now but i thought they wouldn't be.
some kind of breakdown when we first got here. ocd, depression, anxiety, a feeling of constant doom, fear of doors and windows, fear of noises, inability to leave the house.
can't even remember now exactly why any of it was important.
we lost yoshimi at christmas.
and all of the rest of it meant nothing. checking the doors and the cooker didn't stop that from happening.
and i can’t write anything about that right now. still too hard, too sad.
but good things happened too.
we made a movie.
or, ross made the movie. i helped.
and now, the movie is being edited. it's spring again, things look nicer this time around. i like the river. i think i became a pseudo-city person after all but that's okay. but i feel bad that i only miss the forest when i remember to miss the forest.
we sold our car. and then decided to keep the shonky old porsche from the movie. it fell apart immediately. it's being fixed.
i'm working on book illustrations.
loki is ♡
i don't always wear shoes when i go outside.