today again
I figured I would start up my livejournal again. there is way too much swiming through my head as it is. I helped Chris move into a new place today in Mystic. I know he is happy as a pig in shit, him being in walking distance to an Irish pub, along with an asortmant of others bars. I have finally realized that I do not need to date or have a girlfriend to be happy. But I am also starting to realize how nice one would be after not haveing one for 4 years. I just want someone I can be with and talk to and have an intelligent conversation with. I also wouldn't mind haveing someone to hold my hand or just hold. That has become a big thing for me lately I just want to fall asleep with someone in my arms feel their heart beat, and listen to them breathe. I don't know anymore really I just came back from the docks in Mystic to sit down and think, jesus I havn't done that in like a year or so. With 11 more days till I am 20 aproaching me fast I am realizeing that I have no one to share my life with me, and I am begining to wonder if anyone will ever want to share this one with me.