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I feel like I'm standing on the edge of some unknown breaking point.
I'm working two jobs now and still going to school.
I can't afford school on that one job.
Now I have no free time.
But, I'm going to make sure not to work every weekend. I need some breaks only for one reason.
I'm not freaking out about future stress, I'm stressing out that I might not to get to see Tyler. I mean, I will on the weekends I'm not working, but he won't want to come home on the weekends I do work. I'm pretty positive. and plus with gas like it is now, I thought that could give us each a break from travel time and save up that gas money.
travel is hella expensive.
I'm not even in the mind state where I think its unfair for me to have this responsibility and all of this financial obligation. That doesn't bother me, I'm growing up, I would like to say I've already "grown up", but I'm not sure if anyone ever really does.
I'm not sure if I'm trying to become independent or stable or self reliable, or if there is just some unknown natural drive in me wanting to escape from something.
Something is going on in my brain, and what that is, I'm not sure. But somethings moving, and I don't know.
I'm just seeing repercussions. I'm not even making sense. I am sorry. I'm just sorta everywhere in my mind right now.
I'm working two jobs now and still going to school.
I can't afford school on that one job.
Now I have no free time.
But, I'm going to make sure not to work every weekend. I need some breaks only for one reason.
I'm not freaking out about future stress, I'm stressing out that I might not to get to see Tyler. I mean, I will on the weekends I'm not working, but he won't want to come home on the weekends I do work. I'm pretty positive. and plus with gas like it is now, I thought that could give us each a break from travel time and save up that gas money.
travel is hella expensive.
I'm not even in the mind state where I think its unfair for me to have this responsibility and all of this financial obligation. That doesn't bother me, I'm growing up, I would like to say I've already "grown up", but I'm not sure if anyone ever really does.
I'm not sure if I'm trying to become independent or stable or self reliable, or if there is just some unknown natural drive in me wanting to escape from something.
Something is going on in my brain, and what that is, I'm not sure. But somethings moving, and I don't know.
I'm just seeing repercussions. I'm not even making sense. I am sorry. I'm just sorta everywhere in my mind right now.