random thoughts in the morning
i feel that im starting to not need people because people dont need me...
i was thinking about this yesterday...i only have one friend...granted she's the bestest friend ive ever had and irreplaceable...but thats still only one friend...and by friend i mean someone who is there for me, truthfully cares, and helps me when i need it and even more so when i dont...i have karina, ryan, rollie, melissa, elaine, hector, olga, enrique, andrea, and people i talk to online but those are all superficial friends...i dont think any of them really without a doubt in my mind care about me...all of them are stuck in their own worlds...sure, on occasion they've been there for me once or twice(if even) but thats it...they dont want to see me sad...thats as far as their concern goes...and i think its more so a selfish thing because they dont want to be sad themselves...half the time they dont notice my pain or im too busy worrying about theirs and caring too much about them...i could be wrong, i dont know, and im positive this entry is gonna piss someone off but its how i feel right now at this moment in time.
i was thinking about this yesterday...i only have one friend...granted she's the bestest friend ive ever had and irreplaceable...but thats still only one friend...and by friend i mean someone who is there for me, truthfully cares, and helps me when i need it and even more so when i dont...i have karina, ryan, rollie, melissa, elaine, hector, olga, enrique, andrea, and people i talk to online but those are all superficial friends...i dont think any of them really without a doubt in my mind care about me...all of them are stuck in their own worlds...sure, on occasion they've been there for me once or twice(if even) but thats it...they dont want to see me sad...thats as far as their concern goes...and i think its more so a selfish thing because they dont want to be sad themselves...half the time they dont notice my pain or im too busy worrying about theirs and caring too much about them...i could be wrong, i dont know, and im positive this entry is gonna piss someone off but its how i feel right now at this moment in time.