i realize you have a life, i just thought that if you had the time to call and make the plans, that you had the time to call and cancle them as well. i dont like where our friendship has gone. it feels like an obligation now and its not the same. i dont know if things will ever be the same between us. we have grown, we have changed and im sorry, but i dont take to change so well. everything has changed so fast, that the impact of everything, of our friendship, of my friendship with sarah and with my situations with school and my family it hit me full force, and i just thought that it would always be the same, that like with everything else that was thrown at us in the past we would overcome it and still stay friends.
wether we continue to keep in touch or not i want you to know that i am as sorry as you are. you will always be a part me of, of who i became. i shared parts of myself with you that i still havent shared with myself.
in a nutshell, i guess i am the one who has to let go. of the late night phone conversations, the supportive shoulder that you were always willing to let me lean on, the school girl giggles when we were stoned out of our mind.
maybe this is the right thing, i dont know but it feels wrong. us being mad at each other feels wrong.
i know i say, "this is it, i'm throwing in the towel" but im being honest when i say that im not, and i never will be. i just hope you dont abuse that.
wether we continue to keep in touch or not i want you to know that i am as sorry as you are. you will always be a part me of, of who i became. i shared parts of myself with you that i still havent shared with myself.
in a nutshell, i guess i am the one who has to let go. of the late night phone conversations, the supportive shoulder that you were always willing to let me lean on, the school girl giggles when we were stoned out of our mind.
maybe this is the right thing, i dont know but it feels wrong. us being mad at each other feels wrong.
i know i say, "this is it, i'm throwing in the towel" but im being honest when i say that im not, and i never will be. i just hope you dont abuse that.
im here.
im always here.
give me a call.
xoxo
jenny
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